lovely together; I love you

Wednesday, September 30, 2009Y

"even if the sky is falling down."

im dead tired!
i wanna sleep
and im sick!
AGAIN!
FUCK NO!

tumoro work at 7am-3pm.
tired lah!!!

but i have to go thru this.
yeesh..

okay imma go to bed now.
night.

10:04:00 PM

Saturday, September 26, 2009Y

watch this vid. the song is awesome.

hrmm..
tired
work at 1pm :)
hahaha..

ehhh..
happy belated arthurs day?
hehehe

hehehehe...

okay imma go now.
nothing much to write.

im tired.
jealousofu.
imma go now.

ta :)
update later.

11:10:00 AM

Thursday, September 24, 2009Y

"Baby, it's better, and I want you, to be happy.
Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye."

im bored.
im jealousofu.
im tired.
imma sleep now
goodnight.

10:43:00 PM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009Y

blogging at work

thats how bored i am!
hahahahahha

nothing to do.
sit at the chefs office and online..

facebook.youtube.
URGH!!!
I WANNA GO HOME!

3:47:00 PM

Tuesday, September 22, 2009Y

"why'd you have to take my love?"

i was thinking.
and my brain could only come up with this.
i have never been to a place with him that we both randomly can come up with.
its always home,movie,home, movie..

nothing much random that we both can really enjoy.
its sad really..

i took a good look at my pictures and his.
it seems he has been more places without me.
and i have been...
well, most pics are taken in my room.
hahaha...

i feel bad sometimes.
yeah im a lil boring.. i have no time for you.
but i try to make time.

im not like them "best #1 gf" blah blah.
yeah what a way to rub it in BITCH!
i dont stick next to you 24/7 cos i
honestly think thats creepy.

half of our day is built with arguements.
and it usually stops when we are abt to go to bed.

i try to stay away at times by occupying myself with random and
brainless chores..
so that you would have a good taste of that man freedom.
sounds stoopid. its good.
experience&enjoy.
but ends with heated arguements between you and i cos
you dont like this.
and i hated that.

sigh.

i dont know why i came up with this.
makes me laugh to myself.

wtf? hahaha...

but now,
for 5mnths.. im busy.
i dont care and i have that relief that he is out and enjoying.
dont get me wrong.
i dont care is a strong word.
lets just say,
i have other things to deal with.
im only 18 and im heading into my career FAST!

the least i want is he telling me he needs space.
i dont let him breathe.
im always with him 24/7 blah blah.

avoiding that.
i heard that once and it was a blow to the heart seriously.

try not to make the same mistakes i did.
i regret so much.
i havent enjoyed my life yet.
and i jumped in too fast.
wrong decisions after another.

i cant turn back now,
i cant find a way out.
what i do now,
is what i am tomorrow.

enjoy your life, live, learn, love.
cos you make one lil mistake its diffi to find a way out..

pheeeww! enough of this emo shnitzz..
im not angry,sad,emo.
i just thought of it..

nice? hahaha...
i wanna go to that park somewhere arnd curve
where ppl fly kites and have lunch.
ermmm..
i dont know whts it called.
hahaha

alright
GOODNIGHT!

1:10:00 AM

Monday, September 21, 2009Y

hey ho!
my fingers hurt due to long guitar practices.
yeesh..
hahaha..

i think im heading out later.

family outing.
im so bored :(

nothing much been going on..
errrmmm.....
tooodals!
pfffhahaha.. hahah

1:31:00 PM

Selamat Hari Raya!

im so bored at home.
but i like the sleep :)
learning how to play guitar.
yesh!

im jealous.
i wanna going holiday.
after 5mnths.
ill take a LONGGG VACA.
away from civilization.
hehe..

im hungry i want to eat
all those good food.

so whats my stats now?
breathable, relaxed, hungry :)
sleepy.
hehehehehhe.....

okay good night.
mmhm :)

1:30:00 AM

Saturday, September 19, 2009Y

post without picture...

i love all this photography&glitter graphics thing.
i found it on my darling talia's blog.
and a few other websites.

sorry dear.
it looked so good. :)

my baby went to thailand :(
im left here alone for 3days.
lonely days :(

i dont get to have him everyday.
i dont know why.
i only spend an hr 1/2 with him when i get to see him.
sucks right?

i envy ppl who get to spend time for hours.

but then again.
i want my baby to spend time with his parents..
they miss him as much as i do.

hehe..
so cute..

DARN YOU!
SELF OBSESSED!

oh well, last day of work b4 my so called "long" hols.
hahaha

3days aswell,
sunday,monday,tuesday.
heeeee....

alright.
ta you..

12:16:00 PM

Friday, September 18, 2009Y

"Day&night"
kid cudi
[crookers remix.]

everyone is on holiday.
this sucks.
im only 18.
i should be having holiday now.
going places and enjoying myself.
but i chose to start early,
to work early.

they say im ruining myself.
my life.

haha. i dont know what to say.
i regret.
and im jealous.
just 5mnths.
but i didnt get to enjoy with my friends.
i didnt do what i wanted when i was at coll.
now i will be done in 3mnths time.
ill be graduating.
ill be thinking of work.
and id be what 19?
this sucks.

Oh well,
too late for regrets now.

ill do what i can.
and hope that i would
not let them down.

everyone gets a 1wks hols..
i get a 3day hol..
wtf? right.
sucks!

12:05:00 PM

i didnt know, i swear.

what made me feel bad.
what made me feel sorry..

i was so stupid.
i didnt mean too.

im so sorry..

i didnt know you had that.
i dont know how i got into it.
it just showed up on my Blogger and i was shocked.

i didnt know i hurt you back then
i made you like that back then
and walk away thinking it was okay.

if i could take it all back.
i would.
if i could take back all the arguing and fighting of meaningless things.
i would.
if i could turn back time to make it right, turn everything that went wrong right.
i would..

you see,
i cant live without you even if i tried.
i cant function even if you left me for a toiletbreak.

thats how much i love you.
it breaks my heart to see you hurt.
it hurts me more to hurt you.

i am so sorry.
pls forgive me.

i have not been the "best" gf you dreamed of having.
well, i was.. untill i started letting go of the world, you, myself.
pls help me snap out of this nightmare.
i want to be happy with you forever.

but what is worth my baby,
im trying really hard to make it right.
maybe you dont see it.
cos i notice im not trying as hard.
but ill do my best.

believe me,
pls trust me.?

i love you baby.

always and forever baby.
im with you.

Mr. Leong Chun hoo.

12:54:00 AM

Wednesday, September 16, 2009Y

"let's get on the ferris wheel, hope we get stuck on the top. I want this to last forever."

"waiting for your call,
im sick,
call..
im angry,
call..
im desperate for your voice."

to make you mine,
stay with me tonight..

harrrlo! day 3 of the killer food poisoning.
grrrrawwrrr! i want this to go away.
i feel like puking.
GET ME A BUCKET!

i miss you.

fall for you remember that song?
it was your favourite song.
you'd always sing it to me.

im sorry for yesterday.
sometimes i need you to snap me out of what ever shit imma in.
thankssshooo baby.

i love you.

im tired.
waiting for 12am.

17.09.09
2yrs&a half..

goodnight you.

11:23:00 PM

Tuesday, September 15, 2009Y

tired :(

9:19:00 PM

Monday, September 14, 2009Y

food poisoning.

urgh! i feel very not the good.
ive got work tumoro.
this sucks.

im just not in the mood.
im sorry.

goodnight.

9:57:00 PM

ive got some sort of stomach problem.
it makes me feel like throwing up.
do i have food poisoning?
it hurts
that i feel like throwing up.
i have a very bad headache.
i skipped work cos of something.
i hope this goes away by tumoro.
its very painful!
:(:(:(

watch this movie
"butterfly on a wheel."
its a nice movie with Gerard Butler..
its all abt cheating..
urgh! hahaha...

okay i really dont feel so good now.
im heading to dinner then to bed.
i need you.

7:45:00 PM

Sunday, September 13, 2009Y

"lets just hope its worth the fall."

i just got back from watching the gamer.
its aweeesomeee! Gerard Butler is so fckin' hot!
second to benny leong.. third to Robert pattinson..
sorry! :)

hahahha...

so yeah.
im tired!
a days of no work(well, sorta.)

8hrs of standing
yeesh!

tumoro got church..
haha. how to get up..

well, i enjoyed today.
at work and with my family and baby.
hrmmm..

i WANNA GO SHOPPING!
SOMEONE PLEASE TAKE ME! THANKS! :)

1:32:00 AM

Saturday, September 12, 2009Y

"There are moments when I don't know if it's real, Or if anybody feels the way I feel.
I need inspiration, Not just another negotiation."

hey!

lately ive been tired.

im sorry im not a self obsessed person so i dont really like putting up pics of myself.
lately,ive been happy.

i need some inspiration man!
i havent been out alot.
its always work.home.work.home.
maybe sometimes i detour out for a good movie or fast quick dinner.
then its HOME.

urgh!
3more months denise.
you can do this.

next month is gonna be hell.
no doubt i enjoy it there friends are superb.
i have a magnet stuck somewhere on me.
hahaha

today the staff got their hari raya "ang pau"
adddui!!!
i wan also!!
RM 200 MAN!!

:( sadly i was told trainees dont get :(
cheap labour.
work our ass but dont get "ang pau."

yeeesh!

nikko lounge is the bomb.
im getting used to the guys there.
they're funny.
boring but peaceful.

i take a look down at the world on the 26th floor.
i saw a couple having a GREEEATT TIME!
hahaha

then the guys come..
one by one!

they say: "GASPPP!!!! OMG!!!!! SEXXX!!!!! DONT SEEEE... 21SXXXXXXXXX"

i go: "Fuck you! thats 2 guys lah! OH WAIT! OH NO! WTF!!!!."

hahaha :)
funny:)

tumoro is the end of the week.
and im off on sunday :)
YIPEEEEE!

i wanna go somewhere nice!
somewhere special.
urgh!!
im PENNYLESS!

someone save me please?

i havent gone shopping..
well, i have bought shoes& a bag at a bargain..

okay the bag:
@tangs,pavilion.
price : RM179
discount: 50%
tangs member card: RM4 DISCOUNT.
total: RM49!
i think i cant remember. haha
hahahha...

shoes:
@vincci,pavilion:
price: RM 49&45
discount: 3o%each.(60%)
total: RM 56.40

hahah

okay nvm i cant remember what it was..
but yeah. its cheap..

errrrmm..

i wanna buy clothes!
dresses!
more SHOES!
AND BAGS!

imma re-dye my hair.
imma go on a holiday.
please dont spoil it for me.

thanks.

okay will update tomorrow :)
yikes! night you.

12:09:00 AM

Tuesday, September 08, 2009Y

music is my love.

hey,
im back!
tough but interesting day at work.
i hurt my leg

im tired and lifeless.

please someone take me out.
somewhere nice.

a party where i can see all my friends.
i restaurant where i can enjoy good food.
not food that was pre-made and dry.

to a movie where i can enjoy the feel of being around smellyfat ppl
and the comfort of the darkness.
hahaha...

somewhere where i can relax.
be happy. dress nice.
ENJOY!

sigh!
lifeless 5mnths.
and after this 5mnths.
i dunno if id be lifeless for EVER!

hrmm...
yeah..

shall i start all my emoness again.
shall i start all my nonsense again?
urgh! to tired to do so.

IM BORED AND FRIENDLESS!
SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE ME!

:(
okay good night ppl.

11:23:00 PM

Saturday, September 05, 2009Y

ROBERT PATTINSON IS SO FUCKING!! HOT!!!!!!!!!

THATS WHAT I THINKKK

GUHHHH! :)

"evacuate the dancefloor
I'm infected by the sound
stop, this beat is killing me
Hey Mister DJ let the music take me underground"

hi! i told you ill be back..
well, today is an okay day at work.
they all spoke to me.
so nice ppl :)

kinda..
hahahha

my chef was being funny by telling me jokes and all.
i being too logic.
spoilt it and he laughed at me..

malu!

well, yeah.
its okay.
so whats new?
eeehhhhRrrmmm?
im tired.
i thank GOD tumoro is an off day :)
i get to wear my purrrrttyy dress :D

hehehee..
ehh..
i dunno if im going shopping tumoro but i dont wanna waste my purrrttty dress.
next week i get off days :)
YES!
2 INFACT!
YESYES!
hahahahha

"ill eat you up! so yumyum,
cant get enough.
i think im in love."

10:44:00 PM

21 guns- Greenday.

hey hello!

working in an hrs time.
im so bored and TIRED!
yeeee...
ehhh
so.. i have been craving for really good japanese food.
dont talk abt my hotel.
it actually SUCKS!
hahahahha...

ive been thinking abt this place that my darling serra been telling me abt
tenji? is that whats it called.
im not sure where isit.
maybe ill ask that MONKEY
to take me there..
after 10 or something.
hahahhaa

bring me there babe!
:) we'll enjoy!
then shisha after :D
hehehehe

its a date!
u, me, rhea, and i-suck! haha
he has been asking abt u lots.
dunno why lah!

i miss my bestfriends.
okay imma going noww..

update later :)

11:56:00 AM

Friday, September 04, 2009Y

battlefield- jordan sparks

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your

We could pretend that we are friends tonight
(Oh, oh, oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
'Cause baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
(Fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor

Why does love always feel like?
Why does love always feel like?
A battlefield, a battlefield

I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for

6:45:00 PM

i think im falling for you.

harlo everyone.
i have been dead tired for weeks, days, A MONTH!
hahahhahaha..
i didnt go to work cos i couldnt careless and im tired.

well,
ivee been happy for a couple of days, weeks now.
and i feel very good abt it :)

some fear says
it will get back to the same old.
but a part of me is not letting that happen.

i hope it hurts fine.

last month i had a morning shift.
this month is an afternoon shift.
urgh!

i was hit on my several men.
some oold
some okay.
YUCK!

hahahha..

well, im tired.
my eyes cant barely open.
im heading to my bed for a nap. :)

night.

6:08:00 PM