lovely together; I love you

Wednesday, February 28, 2007Y

I say....

minh nhat was so funny today.
kept on asking "do i luk nicee?"
we took a random foto. the 3bs and him.
seh young and him luk so cutee together.

and i may say he smells likee his bro =P

minh tut keep on following me and saying "you luk nice"
and i go "PULL UREE ROBE UP U LUK LIKEE SOMEONE RAPED YOU!"

naurattan was so adorable. Fuz luked drunk! hahah but cutee. ben always my monkey!.
minh tut has "hot! written all over him!!" minh nhat is likee a 1o yr old boy graduating and his smile? hahha.
all the girls and guys just amused mee.
Nina.neetu.shay "HOTTIES!" hahhaa...

6:13:00 PM

Its too soon...

we havee been there for eachother for years.
we shared our happiness and our sorrows.
we played stupid games and fell in lovee.
Childhood friends i think so.

we may havee our differences,
but that doesnt stop us from being friends.
we drifted apart,
not knowing that the future will not havee us together init.
its likee a beautiful painting. brighty coloured and well detailed
but one small mistakee causes the whole Master piece to destroy.
thats us.

its too soon and we aint going to see eachother anymoree,
only on a screen. through the phone and pictures.
if only we cud spend one moree year together and
re-pace where we left off.

friends we always be
No matter what.

the ppl i lovee:

*Ser
*Rhea
*Nilu
*Fuz
*Ben
*wins
*sue
*Ji eun
*Saeika
*Mon
*shreo
*Jon
*Alice
*Hye jeong
*Seh young
*Minh nhat
*Minh tut
*Prashant
*Eun bi
*Naurattan
*kesava?
*Yetun
*Shireen
*nina
*neetu
...

Class of o6'-o7'

lovee them loads. My friends. My family.

And ofcos not forgetting the loveable lil sis and bros
frm yr 9&1o...

*lissa
*serene
*tina
*Kyong mi
*larns
*andrea
*Nat-sEng
*Picha

LOvee.lovee. miss you when i go go!
T.T

6:02:00 PM

Graduation Photo shoot.

My and my ~~Boyfriend~~ =)

Us again. i just lovee the way it was taken. =DD

Oh PS: dont ask me why its largee. i just want it likee dt =).

Shreo&Mon.

Rhe&Minh.

Rhe&jon.

Denden =DD

Haha. Minh nhat.Rhe*&fuz.

Us 3bs. all we need is nilu squiddy. Miss you girl.

Me&ser* haha.

hahaha... i likeee.

Kissie facee. but luk likee OMG! hahah.

Us girls.

Foto shoot was fun. puting make up. asking ppl for their Oppinions. =D
all fun fun fun. it was bloody hot in their.
and i got to talk to fuz. dt was the best thing. =DD
but i didnt say much.

Me: "hey, hows life?"
him: "its alritee. sometimes i get a lil lonely" *with dt innocent facee*
Me: "HMMM..but single lifee is fun."
Him: "so how aree you?!"
Me: "im alritee. happy. enjoying lifee."
Him: "ow ok. so uree bday is coming up. =D"
Me: "yup, and you know where is it in."
Him: "Yeaa.. but why not try another place?"
Me: "i dunno la. i see la."

then i go takee my foto which the camera man was kinda fedup with me.
fuz and kesava kept saying "wah shes hot ah?" and fuz goes "Yep she is hot.=DD"
i blushed for a sec and stared at fuz weirdly. he kept on saying "denise, smilee. push uree hair back i cant see your facee. awwww.. u looked niceee. "
haha. i cudnt help but laugh at myself =DD he does care!!.

then i go back talking to him
Me: "OMG! i think ivee grown taller."
him: "where got?"
Me: "oops my bad! haha. im still short."
him: "HEHEHE...WTH?!"
Me: "i wan to be as tall as my next boyfriend.so i go HONEY!!.....*RUN TOWARDS HIM*"
Me: "he'll suffocate in between them Paos."
Him: "no i guess he'll bouncee off."
Me: "so how did i luk in my foto?"
Him: "Nicee. you luked hot."
Me: *pretending i didnt hear* "what you say.?"
Him: "oH! nothing =)"

soo dts our convo. practically today was all abt me&fuz.

wen we took pix. everyone started laughing and smiling and saying "is this a reunion?"
he held my waist and i wanted to hold his hand. but NVM! he's not my BF!! hahahhaha....
i miss him but i dont want him.

ben&i had problems. YOU DIDNT UNDERSTAND ME!! im sorry. i didnt mean too.
i hopee we okay .

Ending with:
it get so hard to walk away.

4:31:00 PM

Tuesday, February 27, 2007Y

i rather be your best kept secret. i rather be your nothing. i rather be invisible to you.

i want that i will survive KOREAN VERSION!!
i cant seem to find it.

and

TRUST ME HUN! NO! I DONT WANT YOU ANYMOREE.
DONT CALL ME. DONT MSG ME.DONT EVEN THINK OF ROLLIN' DOWN TO MY HSE!.
COS ALL I DO IS SHUT THE DOOR RIGHT AT YOUR FACEE..

I MISS GREG!
I HATEE TINEE*
I WANT HIM!
I DONT WANT HIM?!
I HATE THEM.
I LOVEE HER!
GET A GRIP!
GROW UP!
GET A LIFEE.
ILL JUST SHUT YOU OUT!.

i talked to him 10 mins ago and he went " no dear!, why? ikaw naman kase! sabihin sha b4 its too latee. dont worry. when i get back ill smuther you with kisses and hugs. HAHA. i lovee you den kkay?! and takee caree. dont worry he will understand and if he doesnt then its not uree fault. he is just too immaturee thats all. You know im always here ritee? even how far i am. ill be one call away. *muahz* lovee you den."

*TOOTTOOT* fonee got cut.

haha dts why i lovee my greggy =DD
and i dont think he is coming back this soon.
another 3 yrs? haha.

10:29:00 PM

Gulong Ng Palad.

OMG!OMG!OMG! this filipino drama makess me cry evrytime i watch it.
Meaning to the title : Will of life.
the twist of fate between a poor family and a rich family.
and evrytimee i watch the Crazy-Over-"obbsessed"-irritating girl. i go "OMG! JON! ITS ANJELA!! THATS IT IM GOING TO BEAT HER UP!!"

Grad foto shoot tumoro
and i dunno how am i gonna smilee =DD
make up. lights.camera.ACTION! haha
its abit embbarassing cos Loads of ppl will be watching you
and you wud be shaking and all *TSKTSK*

haha.

well, thats it =DD

10:09:00 PM

its not that...

Its not dt i dont want too..
i likee you. i really do..
but i need timee.
and i dont think your giving me that timee i need.
i told you that it shudnt be too serious.
and it seems you making it serious.
pleez dont touch me there. i dont like it.
i kinda miss being called mei.
i kinda miss calling you Khor.
i need my space to think "is this feelings true?"
i really DONT want to hurt you in the end.
its likee ill end up hurting myself.
besides, we havee such a great friendship b4 this
and i dont want anything to ruin that friendship.
so pleez. dont makee this too obvious.
and givee me timee and when i say time
i mean LOTS of time.
it seems im kinda happier single.
and i shudnt havee jumped into conclusion.
BUT
i likee you doesnt mean I want to be your Girlfriend?
PUH LEEZ! and besides our O-levels is coming up
especially, MOCKS! its the most important.
and my grades aree getting alot better. i dont want anything to pull me down again
and back into Nava's so called "idiot" LIST.
Hmmm... if only you wud understand.
i hopee you do understand.
i likee you but i dont want to be with you. Not just yet.
i dont want to lie to myself. i dont want to lie to you.
i dont want to hurt you. i dont want you to hate me.
i dont want everything to be fucked up in the end.
and i deffi dont want ANOTHER mahfuz going on.

ending with:
dont touch me there i dont likee it.

8:02:00 PM

Monday, February 26, 2007Y

school.

ivee gotten over him.
ivee begun to likee B.
im sick.
my friends say im hot?! ahahha... kidding.
My test results were SUPERB!!

tired. gonna nap.

3:58:00 PM

Sunday, February 25, 2007Y

last entry b4 skul starts.

fun fun.. holli has been fun but frustrating and sad too..
falling apart i guess we aree.

the only person i really need is not arnd anymoree.

Ps: what happen to lil sis?

9:51:00 PM

*sigh*

i think step up is a bloody good dancing showw..
haha.
the steps aree so Awesomee. =DD

i kept on saying "OMG! DT REMINDS ME OFF...."
HAHA.
something going on with mee.

i need to bloody lose moree weight =)
im so fat!
school starts tumoro.
DANG! im gonna see "him".
i hopee the day goes well.
Test papers wud suck i guess.
well i hopeee not.
i think history and Bm wud be finee?
maths just claim 2 more marks... hmmmm

im scared ... so so scared!!

Gawd!! how i hatee fairview!
hehe.

sunday afternoon blues.

1:04:00 PM

[Verse 1]
Whassup? i know we haven't spoken for a while
I was thinking bout you and it kinda made me smile
So many things to say and I'll put them in a letter
Thought it might be easier, the words might come out better
How's your mother? How's your little brother? Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish i could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story of me and you
[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind
but it don't get no better as each day go by
and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose
hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you
[verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
there's a lot of feelings that remains since you?ve been gone
I guess you thought that I would've it all behind me
but it seems there's always something right there to remind me
like a silly joke or something on the TV, boy it ain't easy
when I hear our song I get that same old feeling
wish I could press rewind, turn back the hands of time and I shouldn't be telling you
[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind
but it don't get no better as each day go by
and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose
hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you
(you, still not over you)
[verse 3]
Did you know I've kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oooh nooo.. tried to erase
The way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget
[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind
but it don't get no better as each day go by
and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose
hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you
Still not over you, see I've tried to forget you
Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind
but it don't get no better as each day go by
and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose
hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you

1:01:00 PM

Saturday, February 24, 2007Y

CNY party that ended real fast.

its started of with a day at ser* hsee. went there at 3 something after a arguement with family.
watched a movie.. OMG!! music and lyric is HOT!! haha.

the after 10 mins of persuading ser* parents we went off to sue's hsee..
it was fun.. laughing and talkin and pixs. but not with the ppl i expect to takee with...
at first me and ser* was left out... i called my mom to comee early then ser* left so i was left out.
mins later shay camee and it was getting alil interesting...
teaching her how to usee chopsticks and all. haha...
i madee a mistakee goin homee early cos it was getting sortof fun.
but ow well, when i get back to school things wud be different.

short but fun fun.. Next is denden's SWEET 16 !! YAY!! HAHAHAH.

My, my minh tut.. Thanks for keeping me company =DD

HAHA. b4 ser* left .. last pix.. i luk likee errr hahah.

i went "MINH! hows mahfuz?"
and he goes "he is okay."

OMG! rhea* and her dreams of mister "W" hahah...
just likee minee but he doesnt go saying "i miss you."
i guess its a sign.. hahah maybe.. =DD

jiji*,wyn,nerissa... nicee nicee friends.. My old/new found friends..
i lovee heheh esp Jiji* hahha...moree of the "bonding" soon.
and pixs..

28.o2
Grad foto shoot. OMG!! im NOT ready hahha..
dunno how to smilee.

ending with :
finding my way back to lovee.

9:27:00 PM

PARTY TIMEE...

haha...

in exactly 7 hrs.. hehehe

cant wait. Gonna go gaga.
take pixs. irritate ppl. Go round raping all the boys *insidee jokee.. shay =DD*
smudging cake in sue's facee. drink drink. and fly outta the window. Gamble?. haha..

FUN FUN FUN!

12:19:00 PM

Every time I think about you,
You just drive me crazy
I can't get you off of my mind
Every time I think about
What you done for me baby
I miss you with every sec that goes by
Now that you're gone
I can see that I was wrong
So:
What would it take
To get my baby back into my arms

What would it take
To have you here again
Right by my side
Cause I'm missin' you
I'm missin' your smile, your touch
You're everything that drives me wild
Nobody can make me feel the way you do
Without you I'm lost
You're always in my thoughts
So:
What would it take
To get my baby back into my arms

I know I made some mistakes
In this relationship
I wanna make this thing right
Don't wanna fuss and fight
Don't argue in the night:
There is no way in this world
I can repay you for the pain I brought:
I wanna change this now
And bring you back in my arms

So come back
I won't leave you again
No matter what I do
You're all I seem to think off
Baby:
I miss you again
No matter what I do you're all I seem to think of

Oh-oh
Need you again

12:10:00 PM

Friday, February 23, 2007Y

Nobody's perfect.

ice blended Ribenna and lychee.

MY tom yam soup!!

Haha.. i lovee my dress and my messy room =DD

then again, nobodys perfect.
My family's deffi not perfect.
we may seem so happy but deep within
we aree falling apart..
aba's all fed up.
ibu always nags.
adik is goin on a "dont caree" stagee.
kak is all "im leaving oncee i get my money."
for me im just "whatever".

it seems we all really are falling apart..
its sad to see. one day we're completely happy then the next day we end up
cursing.fighting... GAWD!! i hatee it. why cant we be likee what we usee to be?
and "NO ABA!! IM NOT PERFECT!! I CANT BE LIKEE THEM OR HER!!"

*sigh*sigh*

"some day it wud bring me back to you?just to get back homee to you."

KILING LONELINESS
" Memories, sharp as daggers
Pierce into the flesh of today
Suicide of love took away all that matters
And buried the remains in an unmarked grave in your heart

With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me,
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you
I'm killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness."

dreams of him.him.him..
its funny cos everyday a new dream
but always ending with "baby, i miss you so much."
what does this mean?.

shopping for bday prezzies and Cutee shoess. haha
bought the prezzies but not the shoes.

didnt go out wid ben* but tumoro will. hehe

Cant wait for sue's CNY/BDAY celebration.. =)
happy.happy..

shay and i had the most randomest conversation.
but
it was hilarious =DD

ending with:
" it get so hard to walk away."

11:05:00 PM

its not that i don't want to..
im just afraid too.

i want you but im scared?.

"One heartbreak causes trauma."

i miss you. i love you.
words dt aree said over and over again.
Pleez dont wakee me.
its the only way i can havee you.

i guess its the ring?
its all coming back to me now.
a day spent at my placee.
you rushed all the way too sungai wang to get me/us this ring[s].
you came back to my placee at 9pm.
handed over the ring and said "baby, i lovee you..pleez take care in philippines."

i guess i didnt takee you too seriously.
My lust is stronger then my lovee.
DUMDUM DENDEN! CANT YOU DO ANYTHING RITEE?

Ps: My wholee housing area is haunted.. esp Row 1/8.. =s

1:19:00 AM

Happy Bday Jie Sue and Kissy- Kassey!!

Lovee you lots!!

Ps: im still not over you..
[ a lovely song!]

My black&red fingernails makes me smile.
My Voodoo T-shirt is the bomb!! haha..

1:04:00 AM

Thursday, February 22, 2007Y

A day at Genting..

Got there by Cable carr..
i was so scared kept on holding on to adik.
and he goes "hey,wtf?? apa la you?."

walked in to ripleys museum? it was Nicee..
despitee its my 3rd timee goin in..
Yes,yes.. im the shortest.

Boredd in the so called "cinema"

somee asylum thingyy.. so kool!!

The biggest hand in the world..

Hahaha... in london =DD actually after the pix was taken
kak&adik locked me insidee. it was freakin hilarious.
not to mention hot and stinky haha.

the "swingy" rideee. i loveee ..
it goes round and roundd...
i cudnt help but go a second timee.

somee dinoolandd thingy.. adik wanted to go
so we had to drag out lazy asses up the stairs
and into a boat.

haha... mini rollercoaster..seriously its no jokee.
damn scary!.

after the days overr... My mental patient band!!
YAY!! hahaha.....

xx it was fun. not to mention cold and crowded.
went to first world plaza? and ibu goes "wheres tuan anhs shop? i want to see."
spent hrs looking for it but i just sighed and go
" FCUK LA!! i dont think we can find it!! Oh well, im not that desperate anyway."
passed by someee "haunted adventuree" and aba was pushing me to the scary luking
fella walkin arnd and getting ppl to try the ridee... i screamed and said "NO!! ABA!! TAKUT LA!!
JANGAN!!!!"
i tried other rides likee the Goldminee coaster hahhahaha 3o secs but all fun fun!!
kept on makin fun of thosee "skinny.. overly skinny" lala girls...
and they kept lukin at me likee they've never seen a fat girl b4..
so what.. atleast i havee something to keep me warm haha.
yes, i makee fun of my own racee haha. im not racist. they just makee me laugh
so lets see... i lovee the swingy thingy. hahaha Round and round
until you go dizzy =) i lovee... haha..
i kept on kicking kak's swing and pulling adiks leg..
until we went up!! we planned to hold eachothers legs but stupid
auntie said "JANGAN BERMAIN.. SKALI KAMU JATUH? HAHA"
i kept on saying how if, i remember, i miss him, i want him.
kak&adik whispered to eachother and b4 i know it
they were all over me hitting my head with a piece of paper and saying
" OMG!! NISEE... MOVEE ON!!"
frm 10-8 we've been up in genting doing the most hilarious..
we kept on saying stuff frm epic movie that ppl kept on luking at us
and smiling..
adik and i did something really stupid that somee old lady tilted her head in confusion.
we kept on making fun of them boyfriends.guyfriends and their Dicks? hahah
freakin hilarious..
suddenly some lil boy started copying adik and showing his dad.
we ran likee a bunch of mad asses. haha =D

well, Genting was an experiencee.
havee been going there sincee i was 2?
next timee arnd go with FRIENDS!!

Tumoro :
a datee at A.P with ben* haha.

lil sis back frm langkawi!!
shes gonna bring her bored big sis there ONE DAY!!
YAY!! LOvee.lovee.

Saturday:
Sue's CNY/bday celebration!!

i miss himm..
ivee been constantly dreamin of him.
"If you wanna stay pleez .. stay For good!"

ending with:
why do all good things comee to an end?.

11:45:00 PM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007Y

You'll realize that...

Goodbyes really are forever.
Tears wont bring your love ones back.
kisses are never sweet unless it lasts longer.
hugs aren't warm if it doesnt stay.
Fairytales and true love only in storybooks.
Happyendings aree Bullshit.

the reality of lifee
~~is not all Clouds and dreams.~~
its all PAIN!.

xx even sorry wudnt bring you back.
it seems that ivee been dreaming of you often.
why?
i rather be kept dreaming..
dont wakee me up.
i want to hold you in my arms forever.

im so in lovee with..

Hinder.
Falloutboy.
My chemical romance.
Panic at the disco..

they rawk my music world.
Yeps.

Yours trully,
Music junkie (:

<3

4:59:00 PM

Tuesday, February 20, 2007Y

Party? haha.

MY childhood friends monkey sister. aka. A lil sis i wish i had! =DD

after a party.. bored in the room..

xx had a li gathering with family friends..

started at 3 and ended at 10 if it wasnt for uncles Work then they wud havee stayed until 12 or 3..
it was quite okay..
funfun?
i miss Ky* d lil sis i wish i had!! DAMN!!
haha..
on the 24 there is another outing . to susu's hsee..
CNY/bday celebration!! wootwoot! =DD
tumoro might go and Curl my lovely straight hair.
YAY!! and no! it wont be likee thosee "Girls" and their Jungles as hair? haha.
it wud bee likee big curls.. likee jojo.

nicee.. nicee..

i miss him likee Fuck!!
but oh well.. ill just pretend. continue dreaming and stabbing myself. =x

10:32:00 PM

when You're bored you do this..

Lovee?

Actually Fcuk lovee?! single. HAPPY!

Kak went "siapatu?" and i Go "saya! kak bodoh!".

haha My sunnies.My polka dottie hairband.

haha. i dunno why but i luk absolutely skinny =DD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JI EUN DEAR!!
haha sweet sixteen hawtie!!
=DD

1:20:00 PM

Monday, February 19, 2007Y

im gonna rememebr you .
You're gonna rememebr mee.

My sweet escape is Music.

My bittersweet memories is you.

My Sweet surrender is shopping.

[[ Beautifully broken. words unspoken. ** ]]

Words are just not enough..

i lovee you... is that ok?..

It was then Juliet ran away and left a notee:

"Fuck you romeo!!

lovee,
Your juliet"

9:58:00 PM

dreams. dreams. of what we had just started things.
dreams of me&you... its seems. it seems. that i cant shake those memories.
i wonder if you havee the same dreams too..

xx yesyes, i had a dream.
a day at school.
An Exam.
Mine was Bm.. Ures Chemistry.
We sat next to eachother.
you kept on talking to mee.
i just shut my mouth and smiled.
you sat closer and held my hand.
i shyly pulled it away.
You then held it again and said "Baby, i missed you so much."
all i cud do is smilee cos i thought you were just lying.
Joking arnd. Playing with me then go laughing to uree friends after.
But no u really meant it.

i wokee up and wished i wudnt wakee up.
it put a big smile on my facee but deep insidee i know.
You'll never say dt. You'll never hold my hand again.
Never ever.

Its alright..
ill just keep dreaming. =DD

a Gloomy 2nd day of CNY .

ending with:
"i lovee you, i love you for so long.
i miss you for far away, for far too long.
i keep dreaming, you'll be with me and u'll never go.
stop breathing if i dont see you anymoreee."

1:00:00 PM

Sunday, February 18, 2007Y

hahaha...

Pleez pretend likee you caree.
all i want is to hear your voice again.
Your contagious laughter.
Hug you likee i usee too.

"My head says let go but my heart says hang on."
Confused.

Only fools fall in lovee. Only idiots breakhearts and ask for second chances.
Gawd! THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME.

watching you frm far is likee standing out a shop staring at the most expensivee diamond. knowing you CANT havee it.

evry day i say "Gawd! if only."
every night i wait by the fone and Sigh..

its hard to lovee someone and lose them, its even harder to watch them frm afar and know you cant havee them back.

i sit on my couch staring out the window. feeling the cool breeze. thinking of you and uree memories.
i cry. i cry. i cry. but nothing will ever bring you back.
i guess im just addicted to you.

Let go?
dts something i cant do.
it may look simple but Baby its Damn hard.

its simple for you to let go in 2 months but for me i guess it will take another 10 mnths.
but how can?
2 yrs in one short film?
2 yrs Vs. 2 mnths.
its painful isnt it?.

it hurts for mee.
it hurts for me not to have you.
it hurts to watch you frm afar.
it hurts to tell you dt it was over.
it hurts to remember all we shared.
it hurts for me to just stand next to you.
it hurts so bad...

i dunno if you feel it too.
i wish you feel it too.
i dunno if you miss me.
i wish you miss me too.
i dunno if you think of me.
i wish you think of me too.

itss just stupidity kills!!
first cut is the deepest.

Beautifully broken. words unspoken.

xx Black&red hearts <3>

i miss you.

7:45:00 PM

*Happy Chinese New year!!*

in the cinemaa...

Ghost rider is a FUCKING HOT movie!!!!!
a must see PPl.

after the movieee....
in chili's wid my grapeadee.

xx midvalley outing.
after so longgg...

i hate cinemas in away.
i lovee it in away.

Hate: cos it reminds me of my fun timees in the cinema with him.
Lovee: New movies. dark. i feel so securee. =D

7:20:00 PM