lovely together; I love you

Sunday, December 30, 2007Y

another yr end. a new year ahead.

Yikes! 2oo7 passed by SO FAST!
it seems like last month i was all emo over a stoopid boy.
taking my O-levels.graduating&now im an college girl in love with her high school sweetheart. Puahaha.. yesyes boredom strikes.

HAHA.
but yeah.. 2oo7 passed really fast!
gosh!

honestly, i dont want this year to end.
just not yet.
im very afraid.. afraid to see what next yrs got stored for me.
will it be bad? will it be good? will it hurt? or will i go thru it with smiles.

what all of us aree excited to see.recieve?
is ourr neww "bundle of joy"
joseph nathaniel cheng.
HAHAHA.
well, dts what they want to name him..
HAHAHA..

ow well,
lets just live life to the max.
nd go thru what ever comees our way.
we wud mke it thru as long as we're together.

9:04:00 PM

Saturday, December 29, 2007Y

wee :DD 2 days no blogging.

27.december : boredom at home.

28.december : outing with my bestfriends & brother.
HAHAHA. I MISSED THEM SO MUCH! hehehe..
hanged out until 12.

29.december : boredom at home.

4:20:00 PM

Wednesday, December 26, 2007Y

its time for an update.

lets see havent been blogging for 3 days?
hehehe.. so here's an update for you.

24.december: went Christmas shopping in 1u.. it was so packed!
sis didnt want to go walking around cos the baby was so stressed out.
so she sat down at some kopitiam? and i walked arnd cos i didnt want to sit.
was walking for hrs&hrs looking at the samee things. it was quite sad
cos i see many many couples going last minute christmas shopping together.
and i go "where's MY baby!" not knowing he was just there too. HAHA...ow well,
i went arnd and all i bought was 1 top.. but its nicee :D the last one theree.
the min i saw it i grabbed it. HAHA. then went to somee korean bbq with my sis.husband&cousin&gf. Yes,yes couples! and i was the only single. HAHHA.
untill i called baby..he came to my rescue. YES! and again. i get to have himm for a moment!.hmmm...we all drank "soju" **ahem! funny story behind it. but becos of baby... it shall not be revealed** hahaha then went to coffee bean with baby&hanged out for likee wat 15 mins? HEHEHE. waited till midnight with family. drinking stuff. and counting down to midnight. dt was even more sad cos i wished i cud countdown with my baby.. i dont know if u know this but someone once taught me its tradition to kiss the one you love on christmas. HAHA. funny thingg but i do believe it. i hope next christmas i get to spend it with my baby&bestfriends.

25.december: CHRISTMAS DAY!MERRY CHRISTMAS!hahaha. had a lovely christmas breakfast/lunch. baby came over&aww.. he bought be a christmas gift.. awwww .. it was a beautiful necklace from perlini's... its a letter B but when u turn it to the side its also a heart. i love it.. now this is one thing dts VERY PRECIOUS TO ME! i lose it . i lose myself! hehehehe.. only spent half a day with baby cos had to go for some lunch aunties hsee. and baby, didnt wanna comee. thought cud watch a movie with him but movie lines weree full!
so dt was even moree sad. thought i cud spend one whole day with MY baby.
but then again.. FAMILY got into the way!!! DARN!! then went to pavilion for a christmas dinner. yikes!! Boring!!

26.december: yes!! boring. boring!!! i hate it when i stay homeee...
PFFT!!! the only interesting thing was when baby told me my exam results..
1A 3B's shit! i never ever ever gotten results like dt b4... hehehehe. YAY!so dts all for today.

7:05:00 PM

Sunday, December 23, 2007Y

its a typical love story.
we started off as friends.
we met way back when?

mmm..
i was looking at pictures and in conclusion.
I MISS MY FRIENDS!

baby is in singapore.
i think he came back already.

Christmas countdown:
2DAYS.

so far i have 2 pressies under the tree.
Frm my sis&friend.

sad huh?
mmm.
just gonna sit and wait for his phone call.

7:47:00 PM

Friday, December 21, 2007Y

love and friendship are like a package. either choose both or lose both.

mm.. havent updated in 2days
i think..
HAHA

im so bored!
christmas is coming soon.
real so..

i watched national treasure the other day.
a movie not to be missed.
well, its was okay.
not that bad.

have been shopping alot lately.
got my Adidas shoes already.
its PINK!
lacey pink!
if only they had polka dotties.
i wud buy too!

everybody is going away for the holidays.
everybody has gone away for the holidays.
some are back from their holiday.

i wish someone cud kidnap me for the day
and return me by late night?
HAHA

hee :DD

8:55:00 PM

Monday, December 17, 2007Y

"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only beloved son.
That who ever shall believe in him will no perish but will have eternal life."

heee :DD

Happy 9 month anniversary baby!

well,
firstly i gotta say.
thank you.
You have him for 7days a week.
thank you.
for giving him to me for 1 day.
its not enough.
but thank you.

hmm..
sad huh?
but i dont complain.
no reason to complain.
"you so lanci!"
HAHAHA.

pfft!!
im tired.
in away.
i want to....

HAHAHA.
i miss you already.
call me!!

10:29:00 PM

Sunday, December 16, 2007Y

as the girl sat down at the old tree

where she always seeks "sanctuary"
she looks up at the dark sky.

with eyes full of sorrow,
with feelings
of less importance. she screams
"why?!".

knowing that the sky wudnt give her the
answer she seeks,
she just stares at the darkness
with hope.

but even hope fades away
when all else around her falls apart.

she cries her tears of loneliness
she screams her pain.
but no one hears her.

but one..

the old tree
ever so lifeless
but deep inside
it hears her.

every pain&sorrow she been through,
it knows.
every tear thats been dropped in its soil,
it knows.

if only dt old tree cud talk,
it wud be her bestfriend.
if only dt tree cud hug her,
it will never let go.

"goodnight my love.
forever you be.
in my heart.

goodnight my love.
one day something great will come.

goodnight my love.
some day i know u'll come back to me."

2:32:00 PM

a night so well planned?

im tired.
no mood to blog.
sis&husband arguing.
PFFT!

SKL!SKL!!SKL!!!

i have two bandages on my hand..
mmmm.. aciident pronee :DD
HAHAHA

i guess me goings to bed.
goodnight cruel world.

12:02:00 AM

Saturday, December 15, 2007Y

well,
im going to say.
im not alritee.
im not okay.
i dont intend to be okay.
but..
ill just smile :DD

haha.
i watched I am legend.
and its a very good movie.

pfft!!

last time i checked..
my "spend time meter"
went down to 9.5%
hahaha.
bad.good.bad.

"if u lovee me, dont cry to me.
u wud be here with me."
HAHAHA.
i love this song now.
call me when ure sober :D
LOVE LOVE!!

honestly,
i need a FUCKIN BREAK!
i need a holiday.
no wait
i WANT to go on a holiday..
and maybe decide NOT to come back.
i need to be away..
fromm. EVERYTHING

exam results are out..
i havent gotten mine!
shit! i really want to see how i did.
"seeing is to believing"

i want them to leave!
i want them to go away for a yr!
i want my FUCKIN FREEDOM!

i want ...
nothing..
i just want alone!

hahahahaha

bloody fone!
dont ring!
pfft!
i sleeping soon..

maybe..
smoke.smoke!
im crazy..
i love me!
everything i do for you.
pls dont hug me..
and pretend its okay.
ITS NOT!
u know it!

"ditch" dt doesnt sound right.
i never say..
"im going out with her cos i ditched her the other day."
makes things worse..
u want to go out and have fun..
ill givee u uree freedom!
just tell me where u going.
and i wont bother u till 1o!
dt is if uree not too tired to
say "hello"

okay this sounds mean.
but ow well,
wat am i suppose to do!

OKAY DTS it for now.

1:23:00 AM

Friday, December 14, 2007Y

i colour me world black&red.

black for depression&red for obsession.

HAHHAA..
boredom talks.
boredom lives.
boredom is ME.

i woke up this morning with a song playing in my head.
u want to know what song is dt?

"why do have to go away from moi? Me love?"
does this ring a bell?

and i kept hearing it on the radio.on mtv..
pfft!!
but its got a nice tune to it..

hmmhmm..
it stopped raining.
boohoo!
its so gloomy.

i saw a small icon
in some very random webbie..
and it said "bro's before hoe's"
HAHAHA..
sound very original.

im in the blogging mood now adays.
"raging hormones?"
hahaha.
no im just bored.

Freedom!freedom!freedom!
she shouts.

my rooms a mess..
who ever reads this..
"no more christmas prezzies for me pls! my room is loaded with bullshit!
and i dont need anymoree bullshit in my room!"
and this is to whoever has excess to my blog.
i mean ANYONE.
not ONE but WHOEVER!
so dont think its you..
and cry abt it.
hhaha..
ser i kno u gonna read this soon
HAHA.

mm well, dts it..

1:51:00 PM

yikes!

its raining.
i hate the rain.
but i love it somehow.
HAHAHA

this is crap!
im missing him!
but he is still snoring!
pfft!!

call me.
im waiting.

always..

12:57:00 PM

Thursday, December 13, 2007Y

if u feel like a loser,
think again.. You are a loser.

HAHA.

well, its so funny..
my brothers phone is ringing
like crazy and my phone hasn't rung at all.
dont know.
hahaha..
weird.but its okay...

oh dear blog,
i wish u cud talk..
i really want someone who wud hear me out without
getting all emo about things.

somehow if u were a real person.
u wud be my second bestfriend.
or maybe my new guy-bestfriend.
yes, im still searching for one.

its funny when u cud get all upset over a VERY stooopid thing.
and start blogging and feeling better.
HAHAHA...
dont under estimate the power of the blog.
my dad's birthday is in a wks time.
and i want to invitee someone.
hmmmmm..
but dont know if he is too eager to go.

i was sitting in the car going back frm MV..
and all i cud think of was
b4 history o-level
was sitting with him&wins..
and wins said "awww... i cant help it! u both just look so cute."
HAHAH..
yeahh.. back then it was cute..
was dt 6mnths ago..
now i dont know.

hahaha.. and the
second thing dt was running tru my mind.
My "spend time meter!"
hahaha.. its so low.
only 10.5% on it..
HAHA
funny.funny.

im not going to get all emo over thingss.
im just gonna smile and say "Its okay"
well, even if its not. i shrug dt feeling away.
even if it hurts.
:DD
i smile.
im a "fake smiler"
woohoo!!

you want to know how i feel?
im happy&relaxed.
i dont get upset.
i dont intend to get upset.
anger is not me.
so dont get my smile wrong..
im happy, even if the worlds not.

yahoo!
sooo.. my dear blog.
uree my closest friend.
my dear sweet friend.
its just a pity u cant speak.

but i dont complain.
i talk to myself too
and i help myself..
ahhh..
**okay, i dont know why i wrote this.. i dont understand it also."

tsktsk...
wud somebody Plss..
hear me out?

okay it just turned 12 am..
the "pain&heartache"
stoopid boy. i hope u get hit by a bus!.
dont worry about ure silly little NK girl.
im sure shes getting abused by silly little NK guys.

tehehehe..
im on the verge on throwing my phone far far away.
mmmmm... nah even if i do dt..
nothing good will happen.
HAHAHA.
nothing Good ever happens.
i dont know what im saying.
forget the countless arguments we had.
pls just hold me like u did..
6mnths ago..
promise me evrything is alrite and mean it.
say ull always be there and make sure you are.
yep! im loosing it!
i dont know what im saying..

things change, ppl change.
live with it! even though it hurts so bad.
even how crazy u get when u dont see him.
even how ure heartaches just to feel him
next to u.
lifes tough!
lifes never fair.
Live with it!

"i loveed u,love you&wont stop loving you.
will you marry me?. he said, holding up a beautiful
blue*ish shinny crystal ring."
speechless..she dropped down on both knees and cried.
he lifted up her chin and said.
"will you?"
she knoodded her head in joy
smiled and said "yes,ofcourse i will, definately, Yes i will!"
both sat down crying with happiness..
but what they didnt know was that..
this is just the beginning..
the beginning of a beautiful relationship.

yep! we only just begun.
the start of chapter one.

11:43:00 PM

"Booohoo."

so..
its the 2nd week into my Holiday.
and im going gaga?!
buying clothes and stuff doesnt really fullfill
my hearts One BIG desiree..
**which is for me to know&you to find out**

" If I Told You Once,
I Told You Twice
You Can See It My Eyes
I'm All Cried Out
With Nothing To Say
Your Everything I Want It To Be
If You Could Only See
Your Heart Belongs To Me
I Love You So Much
I'm Hurting For Your Touch
Come And Set Me Free
Forever Yours I'll Be
Baby Won't You Come
And Take This Pain Away
I'm Soo Alone."

yesyes, i heard this song on the radio..
again! and i go..
"awwww. :("

do you want to know a secret??
it doesnt mean anything.
i dont know WHY i keep track.
BUT
tumoro 14.12.07
is the date when all the "Pain&heartache"
started.
:( its stoopid! he is stoopid! she is stoopid!
and yet i Miss HER. i miss talking loads of shit to her.
"My long lost sister."
pfft!yeah right!

lets see.
i went to MV today.
quite crowded.
OMGOSH!
i hve to say this..
i seee manymany "kenari's" arnd..
but its NOT the One i Wish to just Randomly Spot!

i keep passing by this poster
"3o days of night."
i want to watch it..
in away. i still do..
BUT
i missed it!
and ill be buying the dvd.
sitting in my room
Oh-so-dark and watching the moviee..
alone!
thats the thrill of it.
watching movie alone.
HEHEHE..

chirstmas is coming soon!
the days going by REALLY fast!
hmmm...
soon will be jan 1o and back to coll!
mmm...lets seee..

ive decided not to make a "new yrs resolution"
in planning to go thru the new yr
clueless&let nature take its course?
HAHAHA.
yep! im done with planning my life out.
i want things to just happen.
good or bad BRING IT ON!
hmm i like the sound of dt :D

im addicted!
im an addict!
im addicted too..
YOU.
Pfft! dts lame.
haha

so far i have spent RM6oo worth of clothes,shoes&bags
when i get WHAT i wanted..
it soon will be RM29oo worth or THings.
dts how much they love me!

FREEEDOM!
WAITING FOR MY BESTIE TO COME HOME!
i WANT to go out!!!
i need freedom!
i need space.
i need to be alone.
i need something!

hmmmmm.....
okay i guess dts enuf..
nothing else to write abt..

8:58:00 PM

Wednesday, December 12, 2007Y

blah blah blah..

im bored!!!

ivee nothing to do..

been watching bro play XBOX..
sincee morning...
i guess me going to bed..
HAHHA.
napp.. to kill timee.

HAHAHA...

mmkk dts all for noww.
its very hot heree.
but my fingers are freezing.
:(
hahahaha....
nvmnvm..

:DDD

5:36:00 PM

Tuesday, December 11, 2007Y

"im so sorry but i love you."

hee :DD
bigbang! hahaha.
bigbangbang!!
i lovee their music..
well, someoff emm.
hehehehe

todays been the most suckiest day.
lets type this down in points

dog pee in car
mom pissed off
had to clean pee
bath dog
not allowed to watch tv or go online.
cleaned room
sat by the fone
slept

anyway,
watever...
im bored!
hahahahah

10:40:00 PM

Monday, December 10, 2007Y

weee :DD

lets fly high in the sky!
lets go to a place where nobody will find us.
so we can be together!

baby came over today..
it wasnt lonngg..
but atleast my "spending time"
meter is slowly going up.
hmmmm...

his friends wanted him to goo..
"lepak" and watch moviee..
shud i have let him go??
i dunno..
maybe i shud havee?
its not nicee..
likee "ditching" friends and stuff..
all i can think of.. is...
"girlfriends aree never but friends are forever"
HAHHAA.
yep! someone told me dt alonngg time ago..

well,
he was showing me sms's frm his friend.
and i likee dt part dt says "i miss her?"
or something likee dt..
yeah.. the "lanci" gf(sorry to say this)
went back to HK.
and he misses her?
wonder if i go on a holiday..
wud he even say dt?
HAHA.
**stooopid thinking****
wud he go to friends and say he misses me..

we were talking abt after grad frm coll
then going overseas..
i wonder if he wud forget..??
wud our communication
just decreases?
or wud he not forget me and call me everyday?
hmmmm.. i dunno ..
its very unpredictable.
but i hopee it doesnt happen.

but if it happens now..
then how abt the futuree?
how wud dt go?
im suree it wud be worse..

wait!!!!NOOOO!!!
i hope it wont..

okaayyy :DDDD

10:09:00 PM

Saturday, December 08, 2007Y

"just like a tattoo, ill always have you."

are you bored?
sick an tired of home and what on astro?(puahah)
then get uree lazy ass up and go to the cinema..
"Heartbreakid"
must watch ppl!
its just so funny..

yesterday, my first late nightmovie without parents.
YAY!but i was alone.
now i know how my bestfriend feels when she goes out with me&him..
and she's alonee.
hmmmm...
went to pavilion.
the GSC there..
really nicee.
the people aree so friendly!!
hehe..
now i know what tristan means..
HEHHE
yes, the min i walked in
the first person dt came to me mind was him.
HAHA
i sms'd:
"Hey you! this may sound odd but im in pavilion
and just remembered u." HAHHAA
so random..
but yeah.. im starting to like pavilion.
nice people.good service.
hehehe.

gotta go buy christmas gifts.
mmmmm...
i need something extra special.
i need SOMETHING!
yep. i feel somethings missing..

ser* going aussie tumro..
lucky her!
i need a break too!
holiday!!!
holiday!!
hmmmm...

its crazy..
i see lots of ppl i know
farah.khadijah.wardah.
and a few ppl frm college.
HEHEHHEE..
during holi is when all
the ppl comee out to play?
HAHHAHAA

okay im just bored.
i want to go out.
somewheree.
alone?.on a date?.to the moviess.?
yeah rite!!
as if i can.
PFFT!!

1:23:00 PM

Thursday, December 06, 2007Y

headline: "forever&ever baby."

tagline: "One crazy ass sleepover."

lets see..
i slept over my besties hse.
it was so crazy..
met up in college..
made up some stupid excuse so dt i can go back with her& not mom send me there. it turned out that she had NO class.. so called baby (which was actually in thailand *coughbullshitcough**) waited for him with ser&her friends.
hmm.. i think the couple is so cutee :DD hehehe.. they kept talking and laughing..
and telling me weird stuff.. hahahaha... they're fun.funn.funny. hehehe so baby camee coll&ser and i went to 1u with him to watch movie&havee lunch..
but cos i was so darn scared mom wud call me i told them to just watch a movie. but b4 that just made another excuse and lied to mom so she wudnt call laters wehn in the cinema. (sorry mom) well, we watched unrest. a bloody STOOOPID movie i tell u.. no making any sense. no ghost.. nothing! movie finished at 12.. so we decided to go uptown to eat nasi lemak.. when we got theree..we didnt feel like eatingg...so instead go to starbucks and drink drink cooofffeeee. **yuumm** it was fun crapping and talking lots of bullshit. then baby called his friends... went walking arnd with ser to guardian&to a supermarket. just to kill time. Found a new shop called little black book. really nice clothes. ser told her driver to come at 5 which we rushed back at 4 to college. dad called me& he was quite pissed cos i was still in college. when her driver came went back. took a shower.ordered Mcdeez and went onlinee.
till it was like 8 something.. then went back to ser's room and chatted.sat by the roof and laughed.laughed.laughed. it seems we knew eachother ... but just didnt noticed.. i saw a pix of me& her in kindi.. and i started screaming "OMG! OMG! DTS ME! DTS ME!!" HAIYOO.. hehehehe. then at 12 ser sneaked baby in..
awww....

sleeping next to u baby&hugging u.. is likee
heaven. hehe...
i can spend forever just laying by ureside.
it was sweet when u just hugged me to sleep.
i cud feel your heart beat against my back..
it feels good.
it honestly feels dt this heart only beats for you.
and its yours to keep.
with each beat it tells me everything.
everything dt i need to know.
from i love you till ill never let you go
"forever and ever baby."

ser was high in the other room *uhum*
and baby&i were just "laying" in bed together.
talking and trying to sleep?
hehe. until i had my "ghostly encounter."
i love you baby nd thanks for spending dt night with me.
at this point i feel so secure.
i love you baby.

didnt sleep until 5..
went to coll..cos ser had class.
then did my assignment.
hmmmm...
:DD i can write moree.
but i cnt barely stay awake.

gonna nap!

3:23:00 PM

Tuesday, December 04, 2007Y

current status: dead tired.

well, had to put up the christmas tree today.
pfft!
it was in our storage room and its full of junk.
let me give u the feedback off wat happen.

had to carry all the heavy stuff..
cos someone is pretty useless..
gt the tree&a few baking/cooking equipment.
cut my leg..
cos of a stoopid blade i didnt see..
hit my head/back/forehead
on some hard metal thingy
3times HARD!
got attacked by the dust!
kept sneeezing
and lastly..
had to carry all the heavy stuff back
and rearrange them.
PFFFFFT!!!!!

tiredtiredtired.

tumoro gonna sleep over my monyets hse.
heee :DD

6:30:00 PM

its the time.

christmas time!
YAY!!

hahaha..
i went to midvalley the other day..
saw the christmas deco
and all i cud think of was..
the last christmas.
Pfft!

hehehe.
ow well, :D

5:39:00 PM

dont mean to jock this/ rip this off uree blog..
i just likee it...
this is so true.

for boyfriends.

1. Tell her she is beautiful.

2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if it’s just for a second.

3. Hug her from behind.

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up.

5. Wrestle with her :)

6. Do everything with her.

7. If you’re talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her....let her know she's yours and they aren't.

8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi".

9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.

11. Pick her up (she loves it).

12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it.

13. Make her laugh.

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.

16. If you care about her, then TELL HER.

17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things:
- a stuffed animal (she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep),
- jewelry (she'll treasure it forever),
- and one of your t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed)
or shirts sprayed with your cologne!!
and flowers or something occasionally.

18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.

19. Look at her in the eyes and tell her u love her.

20. Hang out with her on weekends.

21. Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)

22. Kiss her just for the heck of it.

23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.

24. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if it’s simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. It means the entire world to HER.

25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)

26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don't necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.

27. Give her wat she wants.

28. Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.

29. Don't hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.

30. Hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang wit your girlfriend all the time.

10:48:00 AM