lovely together; I love you

Tuesday, October 30, 2007Y

Grease?

HAHAHA.
my sexay baby.
is dancing for grease!
HAHAHHAHA

well, i gotta go coll and buy
a ticket gotta watch &support my baby!
HAHHAA

we went secretly dating today..
and was fun :)
but so sad it happens only when we can
and only for a short time

tumoro class starts at 9&ends at 1.
guess baby will send me home.
hopefully :)

ow well.
today is Jonathan Cheng's birthday
aka. sisters husband.
HAHHA
happy birthday :D

6:58:00 PM

Saturday, October 27, 2007Y

Y.O.U inspired me to blog!
HAHA

prateek i miss u!
ben and i are chatting with him now.
i think prom was a total waste of time.
but if i go next prom im gonna sleep over someones hse&go clubbin'
shit this!!

i NEED freedom!

haha.

8:31:00 PM

Friday, October 26, 2007Y

this just in ...

My chemical romance is coming to KL.
this December.
tickets inquiry
go to:
www.ticketpro.com.my

shit!!!!!
im so gonna be there!!!!
hehehe..

btw prom, was okay.
only managed to take 2 pixs.
had to go home early.

its okay.
was sortof fun.
but after a while it got boring.
tristan&i looked at eachother
and said "SO BORING"
baby, won best sales for food fest.
happy for him.
dunno wat happen to him after he sent me home.
ow well, yesterday was he day.
he deserves the night oout.
PUAHAHA.
ow well,

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!
:D

11:20:00 AM

Thursday, October 25, 2007Y

this is the night...

muahahaha..
tonite is the NITE.
PROM NITE!

haha..
im excited. but somehow i feel likee shit!
i don't know why.
pffft!

well, im wearing a ****** cheong sam.
***shush!! its a secret**
will put up picures of prom nite.

well gotta go curl my hair :D

11:18:00 AM

Sunday, October 21, 2007Y

friends come and go.

Hye jeong.

prashanti.

My evil teddy.

Lee a.k.a Liilyy.

so far 3 good friends of mine left..
first to go was hye jeong.
Considered one of my bestest friend.
i remember the first time we became friends.
we were in maths class.
and i was sitting alone.
she sat next to me&started playing with my hair..
soon after we were sharing secrets.
*sigh** its really sad to see her go..
but then again..
she will be back..
soon.

then next is
Liily..
well, i just got to know him...
like in a yr..
and well, he's likee a big bro to me.
HAHHAA
draws for me cutee cartoon pixs..
and not forgetting the big hugee paperheart which took 3days to finish..
it took 3days cos he had to cut small triangle holes inthem
to make it look so nicee..
haha.. i cant forget the "spongebob blowjob"
so orginal.
:(

and today
ashanti had his little
farewell outting..
and i didnt go..
boohoo!!
well, hahaha..
ashanti and i went alonngg way..
he usee to make fun of me cos i was quiet&say stoopid thingss.
then it went to being friends..
and when he had a crush on me was hilarious.
Allia: hey!! button up!! we dont wanna see uree nipples!
Ashanti: shutup!! u know why i unbutton *stares at me**
Allia&suyin: *giggling*
Me: *smiling at ashanti all blur*
evryday he sat behind me and stuff..
but i didnt likee him back cos i only saw him as a good friend.
then he went on to dating kc.
and i was his "counceller"hahah.
i still have dt random convo we had&the bday card..
so sweet of u..
and the bar of greentea soap..
pfft!! "do i stink dt bad??"
HAHA
**sigh**
then he was my councellor and we went of too
not talking eachother...
and noww..
he's gone..

Phew!! dts a long storyy..
but i miss them so much!!

i guess dts it for now..
gtg call my baby..
till den.

10:16:00 PM

Saturday, October 20, 2007Y

college soon...

havent been blogging for sometimee.
today has been the last day i really
get to be with my baby..
monday is the day when evrything will be back to normal?
well i hope it doesnt..
cos back to normal is what i hatee..

well,
its been a long holiday..
and i just
dont want to go coll
hehehe...

i miss my baby already :(

11:40:00 PM

Tuesday, October 16, 2007Y

i just got reminded abt prom..

and i have no dress.
i feel like not going already.
besides im not needed theree.

i feel like not going cos i have no dress..
lame excuse ritee?

"can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they use to be?"

Pfffftt....
im suree nobody can..

baby's out.
i just found out
1o mins ago.
*sigh**

owww WELL,

sleepover at ser*s place..
The dates a secret.
Im gonna watch...
with her.

tumoro is special..
well.. i hope it is.

mmm....
okay i gues dts it for today.

5:16:00 PM

theres no place like home.

"Denise is feeling not herself"
-facebook-

im listening to michael buble* home.
and i just remembered Jon Hoe
haha.

honestly i dont feel well,
i feel very sick.

i guess its those darn mosquitoes
yesterday.
dengue!!

noo...
hope so..
nooo..
hope not..
hope so..

i havent been blogging in a while..
too busy Fb-ing.
sounds like a bad word.
sounds mean..
hehe.

well there's nothing to blog abt anyway.
nothing special's been happening.

just any other ordinary day...

Highschool musical's been playing
again and again in myhead.
hmm.. im sick of it..
im sick of the songss.
but its just so catchy.
mmm...
i guess im another "highschool musical" fan.
"everyday of our lives wanna find you there
wanna hold on tight"
Pfffffttt!!!!
:(

i feel sad.
and again my bestfriend is my music.
i feel lonely.
and again my bestfriend is my music.
i feel depressed.
and again my bestfriend is my music.

i miss..
them.

12:27:00 PM

Friday, October 12, 2007Y

im addicted..

to facebook..

11:54:00 PM

Wednesday, October 10, 2007Y

pixss :D

9:08:00 PM

we have to take our clothes off

i dont know how can somee ppl takee really nicee pictures?
i need a really good camera!
im still waiting for my cybershot!.

poooofff**

im having my "monthly" thingy
and it suree aint good.
ivee got aches evrywheree&my stomach is hurting so bad.

i skip college today!!
muahahaha...
lucky i didnt go or ill be feeling verry cramp*y
frmm 7am-11am..
pffft**

i dont know what to wear for prom..
shit! i just get so mad&frustrated when i hear dt word "prom"
i usee to feel "wow!! prom!!! sooo nicee to experiencee one"
now when im finally gonna experience a real one
i feel like staying homee or just going to the mall for another late night moviee.
well if i get ditched? then ill just walk over to klcc and watch a movie
funny ha? me in a dress lining up for a movie ticket...
haha. sincee i havee noone to be looking forward to hang arnd with but me.myself&i and my baby..
ill just spend time with myself...

seriously i hatee this grouping thingyy..
the ppl dt u madee friends with first
you wudnt be able to see them
and u feel so lonely??
honestly, the best ppl aree in the other groupss.
in my group only the guys aree worth talking too..
the girls aree too quiet..
but nicee..
i dunno...

nvm.. not evrythings perfect.

6:21:00 PM

Monday, October 08, 2007Y

YOU'RE my biggest frustration!

honestly, you just spoilt my moood
so dont blame me for being so careless not looking
and cutting myself.

honestly, i want my space..
i want a day not seeing you or hearing Your nagging.
why don't you just
get a clue dt we will be okay.
and Go for a fuckin' holiday!!!!
both you&daddy.

im sick of everything dt goes on in this hsee.
i dont see him evryday..
pls just givee me timee to see him
and pls stop your insecurity of me making the same
mistake...
im not that stooopid!

instead of me enjoying my "teenhood/college life"
i feel so fuckin' miserable!

i guess its much better to feel emo..
i want to be emo!
it seems happy is just not me.
:(

fuck this..
fuck you!!
i know you want the best for me.
you want me to do good.
but i dont want to be soooo perfect/ so good!
i wanna make mistakes of my own!
i wanna fall down without you picking me up
and putting a bandage on.
you say u want me to go out
and experiencee lifee..
But you're not giving me dt freedom.
im sorry dt the worlds not safeee
and im suree it never will be.

haizz...
no usee talking abt this heree..

7:19:00 PM

i seem to likee this.
hehehe
mmm yesterday went on my first REAL outing with my baby.
awwww..

i miss him :(

im so bored at homee...
my stomach is killing me..
why hasnt my period come out?

haiyooo...
:(

3:30:00 PM

Saturday, October 06, 2007Y

saturday (:

i started my Malaysian studiess..

the lecturer is soooooo "interesting"
**PoooPs**
she suxss..
fuckin' boringg :D
but her assignment is sortof interestinggg (:

i miss my baby todayyy :(

11:41:00 PM

Thursday, October 04, 2007Y

this is mee....

sis&i planned to go back packing..
HAHHAH
travelling with theee soon to be little baby.
HAHA

afterr my culinary..
go to switzz..
then philippinees.
then paris.
amsterdam?? HAHA
u know wats "legal" in amsterdam!!
HAHA
then lastly aussie&stay theree.. maybee.

weeee (: im gonna teach my lil nephew to smokee weed (:
hehehhe..
but first i gotta pick it up myself..
hehe
i think itss cool?? im so tempted to tryy (: (:

my sister sayss its scary to piercee tongue..
but i want!!
"no pain no gain"

i dunno why im in the mood.
For NOW.

OMGOSHOMGOSH!
im listening to My lovee*justin timmm..
havent heard dt song in agess.

HAHA

6:29:00 PM

somebody needs you.

but
You're never there.

im so bored at home.
was suppose to go out
but plans changee.
and i ended up eating&sleeping.
now i got a headache...
bringing back the emo*ness.

baby's busy today.

listening to pieces by sum 41..

"I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I'd thought it'd be easy
But no on believes me
I meant all the things that I said

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy that nothing could save me
But it's the only thing that I have

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along"

nice right?
:) somehow this song puts a smile on my face?

im so addicted to dt song...
please tell me why..
its so nicee(:
just likee dt songg
southside.

baby's busy today.

ow well,
studies aree moree important anyway.

3:28:00 PM

Wednesday, October 03, 2007Y

i dont want you to understang me.
just be theree for me.
can i just ask you dt onee little favourr??

"food's tasteless,
sleep kills time,
the world has gonee all grey."

8:00:00 PM

it doesnt feel right...

mom wants me to go philippines&study theree after switzerland...
but after my culinary i wanna studyy photography or graphic design.

well, today woree my uniform(for the first time)
and its weird! i dont like it!
we did somee survey...
"evaluation of the teachers"
HAHA

i gave all the teachersss good remarks
except 1 of them.
sorry.. i dont givee perverted assholees good remarkss!!

hanged out with ser today.
so long no see her..
talked abt mosst random thingss.
and it seems dt we always talk abt wins.

baby was busy today.

im listening to
"robin thicke* lost without you"
ser intro me to dt songg..
its so lovely!!!

music makess me calmm
heard somee random chinesee song
and itss so nicee!!
trying to dnld it noww.
the guy said its called "please tell me why"
itss by a korean singer called freestyle...
HHHAHAHAH
i dun likee the chinese version..
so ugly!!

ill post the song up on my imeem...
ivee been constantly burning upp..
and i dunno why.
im not sick.. but sometimess i wish i was.
and i just feel so not good enough..
maybe KDU was a wrong choicee.

and again..
please dont ask me whyyy...
i DONT.DONT.DONT wanna talk abt my feelingss.
i feel im just repeating myself.
and i just get more mad at myself..
suppose to be saving up money for my
tongue piercee&tattoo..
but it seems i keep using up...
tumoro im buying a neww maxis number.
im so bored.. i wanna go shopping&watch moviess
By myself..
atleast dt way i spend time with me.myself&i
then spending timee trying to impress ppl&keeping them company.
when they dont think&caree abt me ..
im sorry i cant bee likee you.
or someeone u want me to bee.
if i was olderr likee you guyss..
im suree i wont be likee thiss.

"Completely alone"

please dont ask me whyyy...
i DONT.DONT.DONT wanna talk abt my feelingss.
please dont ask me whyyy...
i DONT.DONT.DONT wanna talk abt my feelingss.
please dont ask me whyyy...
i DONT.DONT.DONT wanna talk abt my feelingss.
please dont ask me whyyy...
i DONT.DONT.DONT wanna talk abt my feelingss.
please dont ask me whyyy...
i DONT.DONT.DONT wanna talk abt my feelingss.
please dont ask me whyyy...
i DONT.DONT.DONT wanna talk abt my feelingss.
please dont ask me whyyy...
i DONT.DONT.DONT wanna talk abt my feelingss.

6:00:00 PM

Monday, October 01, 2007Y

im sooooooooo bored :(

gonna watch one tree hill now.

9:18:00 PM

music heals the soul.

crying makes you feel a whole lot better.
it sure made me feel better.
but today i feel awhole lot worse.
i don't know why.
(ITS NOT YOU!)

but i gotta say.
you've got a lovely bunch of friends
to help you when u need it.
&to keep you company.
lucky you.

i dont.. atleast im not ready to consider them as my friends
cos i don't know them& we're not that close.
they're moree of "buddies" a fling? someone to just kill loneliness.
sometimes i feel i shud have listened to mom&dad
and studied in HELP or UTAR.
im sorry if i keep on wanting you for myself.
i just dont have anyone to listen to me.
and the only 2 ppl i need is u&her.
but ow well,
nvm...
i guess its just me.
i shud change ha?
im sorry.
you have you're own friends now.
we don't share friends anymoree like b4.
ow well, its LIFEE.
im just so sorry.

haha.
its weird cos im listening to big girl's don't cry.
and why am i crying??
i feel i shud have stayed back in high school
i shud have.
i miss evryone.
there was no such thing to feel alone
cos i was never alone.
i always had someone with me
but now...
**no comment**

my current bestfriend
is my music.

Lana sayang if you read this..
i MISS you the most!!

ow well...
enuf of this emo shit!!

timee to study study.
waiting for mom to finish...
going out later...
im gonna shop..
i need something to take my mind off this
**shitty feeling**
"i spend just to make me feel better.
i hurt myself just to smile?
i grab attention just to kill loneliness.
i cry cos it makes me feel securee"
f.y.i i thought i was all dried out..
but it seems i havee moree tears to
fill up 4 buckets.

okay..
pls dont ask me abt this post.
cos i deffi dont wanna talk abt it.
i just want to let out howw
i really feel.
READ IT AND FORGET IT!!
i DONT wanna HEAR.SPEAK ABT IT!

11:19:00 AM