lovely together; I love you

Wednesday, January 30, 2008Y

Current mood: calm :D
"Fuck the memories, live the present &dream the future."

Yikes :D
today i got to see me girlies :D
Love them to bits :D
i met Rhea's boyfriend :D
nice guy..& nice guys always gets the best girls?
hahahahhahahahhahaha...

spent a whole day with em.
watched cloverfield.
which made me dizzy :(
and the stupidest thing is dt i smoked after that &it got worse
HAHAHAHHAA

Events coming up.
CNY!
RHEA'S PARTAY
SLEEPOVER AT SER'S
SUE'S CNY!
VALENTINES?

hahaha..
u know whats weird.
chinese new yr is before valentines
and evryone is preparing for valentines
HHAHAHHAHAAHHA.
OH GOSH!
heheheh :D

"My world revolves around you& its getting harder to breathe."

u know what im thinking for this valentines?
no wait! i dont wanna think.
SURPRISE ME!

yikes :D
my crazy ass F1 driver.
HAHAHA.
"hit&run"
dont be scared yo!
its nothing. :)

"teach me how to love, show me the way to surrender my heart."

9:03:00 PM

Tuesday, January 29, 2008Y

The phone rings&she screams
"Stab my back,
its better when bleed for you,
walk on me,
there never was enough to do."

Frustration. my heads about to blow!
its all scrambled up.
i just wanna scream.cry.
i need you but at the same time i wanna be left alone.
throwing things around the house does not
make things better.
i just dont know..
honestly, i dont feel like this.
esp with you.
i learn to let go.
but i dont know why this time i cant.
.i wont say anymore cos either way its not gonna help.

hahaha.
here's a song dts playing at the wrong time?or isit right?
"apologize"
hahaha.
gosh! so random..

7:25:00 PM

"somebody, anybody. Would you come sit with me?tell me a story&
i will cry on your shoulder."

"tell me how am i suppose to breathe with no air?"

todays a real "fun" day :D
only my monyet&buddies wud understand why..
met up with ser.
talked a whole lotta shit! :D
Yes ser! YOU READING AGAIN!
I KNOW!
i see ure big smiley face:D
hahahahha
chest hair OoOO!!
HT GUY(ooo!but i still dont know who is dt)
what wud i do without her :D
seee! someone really appreciates ure company
HMPH!

guess thats it.
hmm :D
fun.fun.fun :D

3:21:00 PM

Monday, January 28, 2008Y

Frustration.

"If i were to be buried six feet under, lets get buried together and we would be lying in each others arms under the stars."

7:59:00 PM

If I Could Wish One Thing, I'd Hear You Call My Name.

12.22 PM on a monday afternoon?
the gloomy grey sky, the cold breeze.
i had a dream..
i made him cry :D
wait! we did..
for some reason ben.i&ser were at ampang point
shopping for something..
then i bumped into fuz&his girlfriend(khalid) :P
he asked me to join him for lunch..
'with his perv/drunken/druggie smile&stare'
so i told ben&ser..
we went lunch with em at some random place.
at first fuz seperated ben&i.
and fuz sat opposite me.
ser got angry and told ben&i to sit next to eachother.
HAHAHHAHA..
**and u know what couples do when they're together**
then fuz ran out of the restaurant
crying&his girlfriend(khalid)
shouted at us&stormed out..
haiz.. Lovee..
hahahhahaa
pure idiots i tell you.

muahahaha..
im bored!
i hate staying home..
lucky.. i only have 1day of "stay hoome"
stoopid!

:DD
i smile because i want to..
eventhough its fake.
im sure it makes u happy.
and not you ha!
"them"

korean food!
yum :D
i miss lee :D
yes, korean food makes me think of him?
hahahahhahhahahahaha...

ehh?
i feel stoopid for some reason.
if i cud feel no pain..
i wud cut off all my fingers and break my arm.
i wud cut myself again and again
and smile abt it..

if i cudnt die..
i wud stand infront of a bus or jump off a building again&again.
hmmm..

piso..peso..piso!
puhahhaha..
32o peso.. is rm2o here.
but if its mexican peso or cuban peso..
i think its more.
i dont know. i dont care.
weee :DDD

"You make me smile, please stay for a while now."

will u be irresponsible?
will u tell me u wud but then u wont?
will u apologize and do it again?

"when it's not alright,
when it's not okay.
will you try to make me feel better?
will you say alright?
will you say okay?
will u stick with me through whatever?
or runaway?"

hee :DD
i loveeeeeeeee.... J.co donuts :D
big apple? okay okay lah. hehe ..

i want a kitty :D
hahhaha.

12:14:00 PM

Sunday, January 27, 2008Y

"i wear polka dot shoes because i think its cool."

yo! its raining now..
and im dead bored!
M&Ms!
i love M&Ms
hahhaa..
yeah! im eating M&Ms
and blogging..
isnt dt cool?hahaha
Oh! and im checking my frnster&facebook& listening to music.
HHHAHAHA.
multi-tasking?
eh?? girls can multi-task better than guys :D
HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA
its so hot at home..like a sauna

recently i had pain in myside..
its odd..
it hurts so bad dt i felt like vomitting&my knees were weak.
hmm. mom got scared&said "apendix or kidney prob"
gosh!i freaked.
but now..
its just a lil pain..

i want to go sunway lagoon :D
it seems my BESTIE(rhea)
goes there often.
and it seems fun!
i wanna go!..hehehee..
swim .play.smoke.swim.
blah blah..
hehehehe
baby if u read this..
LETS GO!

ehhehehehe...
no coll tumoro.
NOooo!
hmm..
i havent started moral edu.
stoopid lecturer!
unorganised college.
pfft!

tehehehe.

"love is like a balloon.
You hold on to it, until its time to let it go"

tehehehehe.

My baby :D
i havent seen him in a day?
HAHHAHA.
and i miss him.
he's in mid valley with his sister&mom :D
hehehe..
if i was given a choice or allowed i wud have gone with them..
im so bored!
it seems like im the one who just gave birth.
HAHAHA.
im helping to take care of the baby.
what happen to the father?
GOSH!
stoopid i tell u.
mmm... :D

okay i gues dts enuf for now.

lastly,
"Filipino movies are so dramatic :D"

5:46:00 PM

Saturday, January 26, 2008Y

if you want me to stay, I'll never leave,
if you want me to stay, we'll always be,
if you want me to stay love endlessley,
if you want me to stay, if you want me to stay I'll never leave you.

6:53:00 PM

This is how he roll.

this is how i roll :D.

"Benden"

yipe!
nothing much..
im going nuts.
really not feeling myself.
i wish to be alone.
but on the other hand i really want someone to listen to me.
cuddle me?.
gah!

"Just shut your mouth, Can't You see she's indifferent?"

went for some talk today.
bloody boring!
the spokesperson was..
how i call it?
"slow and steady"
HAHAHA.
i really wanna watch sweeny todd.
i really want to go out..
just to hang arnd.
i want something to do!
mybe i shud take up piano
or guitar..
maybe drums! like my bro..
Gosh!ahhh!!..

listen to shane ward breathless!
very nicee:D

im dead tired.
i dont feel like ME!
i haven't smoked in a month?
and im counting the days till "they" leave!

haiyo!
Thai!thai!thailand!
i want to learn how to speak THAI!!
maybe i wud live there?
get married there?
PUAHAHAHHAHA!!

ser!stop reading my blog and study!
hahahha.

You too ben!
but not study..
i mean..stop reading my blog,stop playing games!&CALL ME!

You Three laarnia!
i miss you :DD
hehehehe

2:26:00 PM

Friday, January 25, 2008Y

hee :D

holiday is starting!
CNY!next next week.
sleepover!
Sues party.
but if my 2 besties(ser&ben)
are not going
im not going...
rhea's going..
me wanna go see her.
i think she and eddie broke off.
HAHAHA.
yikes! waiting for "them" to leave.
HAHAHHAA.

PARTAY!
WOOHOO!

6:33:00 PM

Wednesday, January 23, 2008Y

holiday!

stalkers!

college!!

friends!
UAHAHAHA.

I MISS YOU!

1:14:00 PM

Monday, January 21, 2008Y

yeee :D
hehehe

watching a show on mtv called true life.

and its abt long distance relationships..
HAHAHHA..
so scary..
girl dont trust guy.
guy too busy for girl.
girl angry with guy.
guy dont give a shit.
girl ignoring guy.
guy misses girl and calls her out of the blues.

yikes!
LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS!
GAH!!
hahahhaha..
thank God im not in one.
if i am.. i rather not be in a relationship.
haha

Joseph is admitted to the hospital for a disease called
"jondise"*dont know if its correct spelling.
it causes the skin to turn yellowish.
but it wud be good after.. i hope.

9:28:00 PM

Sunday, January 20, 2008Y

Oh-poo!

i think the lead singer of gym class heroes is quite hot!
hehehehe.

mmm..i have no clue what happened' to my baby:(
no sign of him.
dont even pick up phone calls.
maybe he busy :((
i miss u baby!
haha.

was looking thru pics..
saw a few pics of us during grad.
gosh he looked fab!
missing him.

4:52:00 PM

Saturday, January 19, 2008Y

when will i see your face again?

taking care of a baby is not easy!
gosh!!
late nights.
now im sick!

nothing much really going on ..

Update:
"Happy 1oth month anniversary baby!!"

yay!
parents not going outstation in april..
BUT
in March!
the wedding is in march 15..
they wud be gone for 5days or maybe longer.
if they leave on the 14..
then i wud be able to celebrate my 1st yr anni with my baby!
hehehe..

in feb ser's parents going thailand.
YAY!! another crazy sleep over.
YAY!
hahahha..
ser! i know u wud read this.
tell me when kk.
ill pack my bags.cigs&booze..
HAHAHA...

okay..
so dts its for noww.

5:55:00 PM

Tuesday, January 15, 2008Y

say hello to Our new addition to Our Family :D

Joseph Cheng.
Born today..
15.January.2oo8
at 6.59am..
my beautiful nephew.

:DD

4:57:00 PM

Friday, January 11, 2008Y

Finally!
i uploaded this song to imeem.
didnt know can do dat..
doi!

haha..
time after time.
"i will always be there for u endlessly"
continue doing what you doing. or what is best.

either way..
this is a promise i make to u.

2:52:00 PM

without you.

college started today.
just came back..
well, came back an hr ago.
haven't eaten.
i have no appetite.
it was okay.
i missed my idiots!
HAHAHA.

i was nominated to join the Grapevine committee.
grapevine is the studentbody committee..
who organizes prom.Foodfest&blah blah!
gosh! going for interview with the principals.
HAHA
nervous but im sure it will be okay :D

my heart has been aching since yesterday.
NO!DONT THINK ITS YOU!
not that kinda heartache.
i cant feel it ..
its too normal.
some muscle near my heart keeps aching.
hahaha.
nvm.. its going to go soon..

errmm... its a sign!
a "monthly" sign!
feeling like u wanna cry.
yep! yay! thank God! :D

tumoro got Moral studies.
yikes! with Mr. Law.
wonder who is he..

i think im gonna sleep early tonight.
-toodles-

2:25:00 PM

Thursday, January 10, 2008Y

Back to college.

tumoro coll starts hehehe.
im malas..but i have to go.
errm..cleaned my room.
me very tired.

Sweeny todd
comes in cinema's
on the 24th jan.
i really want to watch!

hehehehehehe...
okay okay :D
dts it for now.

6:30:00 PM

Wednesday, January 09, 2008Y

Appreciation
- You never know what you got, till what you got is gone.-

didnt do much today.
just cleaned my room.
dts it..

sister having contractions?
Oh my.oh MY!
akan datang ppl!
hahaha

someone has been reading my blog!
SOMEONE!
hahaha.
dont be afraid...
i know its you
SERRA!
outing!u.me.lee.ben.rhea&ed.
HAHAHAHA.
i miss u darling!
hehe...
lets WATCH sweeny todd!
emm..johnny deep..
hot!hot!hot!
ehhehehe

okayy..okaay i guess dts abt it..

7:31:00 PM

Monday, January 07, 2008Y

i miss them.
everyone.

i love this pix cos of the shiny white thing in the middle.
i look kinda skinny though :D
-end of Graduation 2oo7-

hmm...
didnt do much today.
lazed arnd.watch tv.
normal routine.
suppose to go groom dash but
theres no groomers today.

emm.. coll starts soon.
and i cant wait!
hmm yeah, this is a first.
i CANT wait!
HAHAHA.

im not sure but maybe plans change for this april.
it all depends.
if i dont have exam. i have to go..
if i have exam then i stay.
Ooh! i just hope i do have exam!
its not everyday my parents go on holiday!
Pls Gosh! Give me A Fuckin' break!
i hate this..
why everyone is enjoying themselves
but not me!
why?! unfair life..
why is my family acting so responsible all of a sudden?
my bro.sister(well, not really).parents(ofcos!)
why?!
when i wanna do something..
they have a say..
when they do something..
nobody says anything.

OMG! pleez! if i really wanna get married i sure wud NOW!
but im not that stoopid! so cut all ure fuckin' bullshit!and responsibility.
let me go! "family"?a word dt u love to hate.
im a fuckin' prisoner..
when i say "i wnna go out"
evryone goes against it&"pretend" to be lazy..
or they just say "where?haiya!dont need to go. u'll just waste money."
fuck you! i dont wanna waste money.. i just wanna walk! is dt so hard to ask or do!?
i can feel my brain all scrambled up! its gonna blow anytime soon.
if only i cud drive! if only i cud! then i wont give a fuck!
yeah dts right..
i DONT give a FUCK!
i envy many people arnd me..
but my mom says they envy me more..
i dont care if im very loved.pampered.lucky!
i envy them cos they dont have evrything in the world.
life's much happier if you DONT have evrything .
life's much annoying if you DO have evrything.
yes! u get bored when u have somebody wiping ure feet evrytime
you step out..u get bored when u just act all quiet&get what you want..
you get bored when u fall sick&somebody takes care of u..
yes!im sick!sick of ALL OFF YOU!

ow well, lifes not that fair..
i jsut dont give a fuck!

9:43:00 PM

Sunday, January 06, 2008Y

yikes!

im bored!
dont ask!
hahhahahaha..

missing you.

10:20:00 PM

Saturday, January 05, 2008Y

fuck.

ive grown a whole lot chubbier since the holi's started.
cant wait for it to end though...
going to coll is a work out session.
but..
oh nvm..
there's not but
just hope for the best.

lets see..
mom&dad going to philippines.
cant wait!
but then again..
my sister&bro is being a prick!
the told me
"it doesnt mean freedom.can do whatever you want!"
FUCK YOU! i do as i please.
when i want my bf to come. he comes..
when i want to go out..
i GO!
i dont have to listen to you...
stoopid i tell you!

okay im not gonna spoil this post cos of a stoopid thing.

cleaned my room whole day.
but it still looks very messy!
i WANT to go out!
haiyooo..
i wish it still be december.
i feel very relaxed..
now i feel very uptight?
eh?is dt how to describe it?

my highschool books.
has heaps of memories..
cleaning them up
just brinks memories back.
but now they're all torn up
in a huge plastic bag..
ready to be recycled.

"your guardian angel"
does dt ring a bell? HAHAHAHA.
i miss them.

yikes!
an early bday partay for me..
since parents going away..
but dont know..
just hope for the best!

okay..im outta thinngs to write abt..
"if its not alright, if its not okay.
would you try to make things better?"

argh!
hahahhahahhaha :D
"ill will never let you fall, ill stand up with u forever,
ill be there for you through it all."

:DDD

current song playing :
Please tell me why.

8:37:00 PM

Friday, January 04, 2008Y

if 2 margaritas' dont get me drunk, then what does?

muahahhahahhaha...
i bout facial cream.
i treat it as creamcumcreamcumcumcream
hahahhaha... if uree smart u wud figure it out asap.
HAHHA

my dongbong!
went to pavilion.
wanted to buy clothes.
But instead bought J.co donuts.
HAHA
i think its finished already.
dont know why.
im in such a good mood today :D
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA..

boy can we chill?
hehehheehhehe..
i want date!date!date!

Oh!btw,
parents going on a trip to philippines
this april.
YAY!
im free!
thank you God!
you giving me freedom!

:D

10:39:00 PM

Thursday, January 03, 2008Y

haha. baby, dont ask. i just love its eyes :D
baby's kitty.. midnight. :DD

i gave it dt name :D
yo!
hehehe

i see many ppl had fun during new yrs :(
oh!poopoo!
next nw yr.
i want it DIFFERENT!
i wanna spend it with friendS!
i wanna countdown and watch lovely fireworks!

i smell like doggy drool!
hahaha.
lets see..
counting down the days till i get to see my nephew/niece?
hehehe

college will start next week.
pfft! i dont feel like going!
:(
evrything will change. evrything will be back to normal.
hmmmm.. nvm i hope for the best :D

11:15:00 PM

Wednesday, January 02, 2008Y

the second day of the new yr.

boring! just eat&clean!
Pfft!.. omg tumoro is the opening
of dt mew tim burton movie.. "sweeney todd"
yikes!
i wanna watch :(

hmmmm...

8:36:00 PM

Tuesday, January 01, 2008Y

Goodbye 2oo7. hello 2oo8.

firstly,
to all me lovelies..
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

secondly,
heres a flashback on my 2oo7.

January: O-levels&mocks.
Febuary : the start of what soon to be "us"
march : sports day&when the love began.
April : study period for O-levels.
May : Graduation&My sweet sixteen.
June : preparation for sisters wedding& My freedom from school.
july : sisters wedding&My monyets' birthday outing.
August : College starts& food fest?
September : nothing really..."depression?".
October : prom&taylors halloween partay(which i didnt go)
November : Exam& ultimate prom.
December : Crazy sleepover.christmas.exam results.

yikes! thirdly,
the begining of 2oo8..
2oo7 the best&worst yr of my life.
"hey! we all have to get the best of both feelings."
hehehe. em... yeah! i kinda miss 2oo7.
hahaha.
hmm..hope this 2oo8 wont be so bad.
well, spending new yrs at home. nothing much really..
its so boring!. just had new yrs lunch and watch tv.

love yah all out there.
:DD

6:18:00 PM