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Hi, I'm dee:). I am dEE.I have a much much longer name but I'll leave it as it is for the sake of internet safety measures. I'd like to believe that I am a princess :)
im crazee over colours&dotts.. i'd like to stand on top of the world and scream! im slightly screwed up. but i cry,laugh,eat,sleep like you. im not an ALIEN. but i often wonder how would that be like :) i love my boyfriend♥ Mr. Leong Chun HOO
i daydream alot.. ALOT.
i'm obsessed with anything colourful and unique. Then again, im a UNIQUE individual
i smoke&drink. yeahh.. deal with it!
i can't roll my tongue BUT i can roll my eyes. :)
I am a certified bubble burster to be.
Ways to contact me:
♥ My tagboard? (duh)
♥ Msn
♥ Facebook
♥ tweetweetwitter
so yeah, what more can i say?

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this is my brother.. the best i havee..
i guess..
bribes alot, swears alot, temperamental,
biggest flirt ever known, Football fanatic,
ASSHOLE. but i love him. yeah.. i do..
what can i say.. like brother like sister?
eeerrrrrrrmmmm :/




so this is me..
back in highschool...
well, any differ?
i think i looked much better then..
then now.
i had long hair.
i didnt look like i just got outta bed.
i didnt have panda eyes.
i was can i say..
HAPPY...

now im getting a lil outta my mind.
i have that lil jealousy feeling..

im so jealous of you..
you are so gorgeous,
everyone loves you.
if only i could be like you..
i wish i could be like you.
you are full of self confidence..
full of energy and laughter.


i wish i could be like you..


yeah,
im drained outta energy.
i look so dead.
i look like a freakin' zombie.
i wish i was like you.. seriously.
im so sick and tired of things.
i dont wanna move on.
i want things to stop right here.

he always complains i wont survive in the real world.
fine! be it!
run me over with a truck and smash my head.
that case no one would see who i am.

i cant do this anymore.
seriously,
im giving up.
but then again.
i have given up on myself a long time..

i have made so many mistakes in my life.
i have gone so many wrong paths..
and yet i made another mistake.
approx, 2mnths ago..
or lets just say..
2yrs ago..
half yr left.
and i dont know if i can do it.
ive lost it.. i seriously did..
i just cant wait till i sigh for relieve
hrmmm..

please help me someone..
i need someone to help me.
i really dont know what to do.

i feel like living somewhere far..
maybe in the countryside..
it seems happier there.
maybe thats the life for me..

"sigh"

i dont wanna run away..



it seems a friend of mine have been feeling what i have been feeling.
the weirdest thing is i have been there. done that. got out.
yeah..

imma miss you darls.
pls be good.

wait for me can?
ill be back for you sweets.

tell me everything kay? :)
ill buy you something nicee.

i love you baby.

true happiness is on its road to self discovery.
i hope it gets better.
the least i wanna feel is unhappy again..

some changes need more improvement..
we are like engineers.
and theres more room for perfection.
if perfection is bleak.
tell me, ill stop my childish act.

6am.

i cant sleep.
ive got a pounding headache.
i just dont know why im still up.

"long island tea doesnt K.O you!"

hahaha.
wonder who is that idiot that put that into womens feeble mind.


i look thru my old friendster comments.
he was just the sweetest back then.

once in a blue moon ill hear he misses me.
back then was everyday.
i loved him then.
i still love him now.

evryday was a not to forget her day.
and how much he loved spending time with me.

that was the sweetest.

what have we all turned into now?
as we grow older..
we seem to remember all the dumbfuckin'hurtful things.
and forget all the small things.

as we grow older..
we just forget everything.

"when you find you.. comeback to me."

Forever love.




i can't sleep..

"last house on the left."
not a movie for the weak hearted.
sick movie.




im so obsessed with the IPHONE!
i cant get it off my head.
until i have it in my hand.
FCKK!
should have waited..
jeeezzzzz....

Hrmmmm.. :(

Bitterheart..



Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,
Children spinning around till they fall down down down.
I wait for you: it's been two hours now,
You're still somewhere in town,
Your dinners getting cold.


I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.


And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday,
So tell me whats her name.

Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.


Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.


-Zee Avi-

"Time flies.. as so they said."



CULA 2




My Bestfriend!










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i cant sleep.
i miss them already.
time sure does fly..

hrmm...
i wanna do something.
something great.

i deleted 7pics by accident.
and i LOVE those pics.
Grawr!

lets see..
i have been under "depression" for a month.
decided to go to the doctor for medication.
cos you see... i need help
Professional help.
im sick.. Mentally sick.

everyday id cry for no apparent reason.
blame myself for things i didnt do.
it went on day and night.
i had nothing to say..
everyday was so still.
i dont talk. i dont eat. i just SLEEP.
i got so angry with myself that i hurt myself.
and i tried to kill myself twice but my conscience is stronger then my heart.
i dont know why im writing this here..

for the past 2days,
im seen with atleast a smile on my face..
not fake..
a real smile.

ive become over obsessed with MJ and losing weight.
im prepared to go to the maximum. with no regrets.
im doing this for myself.
i just wanna look in the mirror and smile at myself.

i think of Anorexia.
but im afraid to go thru..


im trying..
wait and see. its too early to tell.
but im trying..

please bare with me.

i love you. thanks for understanding.