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Hi, I'm dee:). I am dEE.I have a much much longer name but I'll leave it as it is for the sake of internet safety measures. I'd like to believe that I am a princess :)
im crazee over colours&dotts.. i'd like to stand on top of the world and scream! im slightly screwed up. but i cry,laugh,eat,sleep like you. im not an ALIEN. but i often wonder how would that be like :) i love my boyfriend♥ Mr. Leong Chun HOO
i daydream alot.. ALOT.
i'm obsessed with anything colourful and unique. Then again, im a UNIQUE individual
i smoke&drink. yeahh.. deal with it!
i can't roll my tongue BUT i can roll my eyes. :)
I am a certified bubble burster to be.
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Thursday, January 07, 2010Y

i just dont know.
what am i really to do.

i feel that i dont belong with you&the people you are with.

i was brought up the other way around.
i was brought up to play alone&be alone.
i not know how to interact.

when i see the pics of urs.
i share ure happiness.

but i feel that i wouldnt know how to be that happiness for you.
i get jealous cos i envy your happiness.
your fun.

i never have fun like that.
because nobody ever invites me to such.
even my good friends dont invite me to their BBQ party.
shopping.Movies.birthdays.
yeah.

i only have afew good friends and when i say that i mean 2good friends.

yeah.
somehow i feel so happy to be there the other night.
but somehow i dont meddle with your friendship cos its non of my business.

11:03:00 PM

Tuesday, January 05, 2010Y

Omg. sweet movie.

yeah its old.
yeah these girls are like wat 16 or maybe 17.
BUT.
i really liked it.
yeah im back dated and all that

hahhaa...

it just felt so nice.
having that first love come about.
not to say first love.
that feeling when it was "playing hard to get"
the friends.
OMG! she has lovely friends.
OPEN. FUN. ADORABLE.
they go shopping.gossip. dance together.
have fun together.
I wish i had a group of girls like that.
where clubbin' means less and friendship means more.
when it was "hoes" b4 "bros"
hahahhaa..

*sigh*

my hair is in a mess.
i need a CUT badly!

i havent bought anything for myself since i had my last pay.
and ive spent it all.

i wanted to buy a nice dress.
or maybe a nice outfit.
OMG!
IM IN NEED OF NEW CLOTHES OKAY?
yeah.
Imma try something new.
with MAKE UP.
i need to be a girl.
i want to lose weight cos i want to be a SKINNY pretty girl.

which im trying desperately but im strictly overweight.
ive got a lazy ass.
and i just cant help but eat.
THATS WHY I WANT TO GO OUT.
DO SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE.
LOSE WEIGHT!

sigh!
HELP ME PLEASE! :(

10:47:00 PM

Sunday, January 03, 2010Y

2010 SUCKS!

hey, its the first few days into the new year and i really HATE IT.
My dad has gone madly INSANE.
My mom is in deep depression.
My nephews are monsters.
My sister is still in her "single" world.
My brother is flying arnd up there in a heartshaped cloud.
AM I THE ONLY FUCKIN' SANE ONE HERE?

i hate this really,
ive lost all my friends to deep partying& better friends.
ive lost all touch with myself due to busyness.
ive got the taste of unfairness and i really hate it.
i dont take advantage.
thats why people dont bother inviting me anywhere because my ans is always.
NO.

you all are 10 steps forward and im 20steps back.
thats how it goes.

i really hate this.
why cant my family be NORMAL.
why cant they TRUST ME FOR ONCE.
with or without him.
i really want to be like them.
LIKE HER!
why cant i?

i really wantt to be free.
i really like to go out at night and come home at 6am.
just enjoying myself.
dont i have the right?
it always gets back to that thing
abt being special& the 10 out of ppl shit thing.
i HATE IT!

she is prettier than me why nothing happen to her?
i would really love to go road trips and come back at night or late afternoon.
but noo!
everything is a no. or its to dangerous or i dont trust you.
in a group of 10ppl wtf can happen to me?
tell me pls.

dont be jealous okay.
you were MY age once you FELT that freedom.

you have heard tht somefriend of mine had damn hell of a strict parents.
and they didnt allow her to even step a foot out.
but look at her now.

its that simple thing of letting go.
if i wanted to get pregnant.
i would have a long time ago.

if only you were there when my auntie was advicing me.
"GO OUT ENJOY YOURSELF, YOUR STILL SO YOUNG. THERES ALOT TO SEE OUT THERE THAN ROTTING HERE AT HOME. PARTY, ENJOY. BUT STAY AWAY FRM ALL THE SEX& DRUGS."

i just wanna know why?
WHY WHY WHY!
if all u wanted frm me was to study& one day join the church or something.
YOU SHOULD HAVE KEPT ME AWAY TO THE CHURCH OR SOMETHING.

this is way unfair.
My friends have a social life.
MY BOYFRIEND has a social life.
why cant you give me one??
what must i do?
you want me to pay you back all the money i used just for my freedom?
tell me WHAT TO DO!
id DO ANYTHING YOU WANT!
PLEASE .

ive lost touch with all myfriends because of you
afraid that id make you angry.
i defend all of them especially him from your dirty mouth.
thats why i always say no. to keep you from saying anything.
im simply ALONE NOW.

THANKS FOR NOTHING.
the both of you.

8:02:00 PM

Thursday, December 31, 2009Y

one of the worst new years eve.

:(

yeah. why?
cos its my fault.
i ruined my own New yr.
okay?

goodbye.

6:31:00 PM

POST 905 .
: happy birthday world.
you are 2010!

weee jin! :)

Geraldine&karel.

Friscilla& hidden keith .

begining of 2009.

end of 2009 :)

one of our 2009 crazie sleepovers

frm 4 became 3, now 2.

end of College b4 training.

start of college

2007 july :)

wow! so fast the yr went by.
2010.
big number man!

im planning to put my blog on unprivate for a while.
so people can see that ive been blogging for coming 4 yrs dy or was it 3 yrs?
im not sure.

2009 has been challenging.
in every aspect of my life.
i have been frm poor to rich to poor again.
ive gone frm happy to sad to depressed to happy again.
ive made friends.
ive lost alot of friends.
ive cried more then ive smiled this yr.
ive gotten sick
ALOT!
ive learnt new things.
im planning to quit some dirty habits.

yeah.
there are more but i cant think.
ive made it thru this yr..
but i wished i could've made it better.
too late for regrets now.

I welcome 2010 with an open mind and heart.
i hope it brings good luck.
no new yrs resolution.
im gonna go thru it
unplanned and spontaneous.
:)

Happy new year everyone.
i wish u all the best.

12:05:00 PM

Wednesday, December 30, 2009Y

FINALLY!
IM DONE!

NOW,
WHAT THE HELL TO DO?!

NEW YEAR IS COMING.
HOPE IT IS GOOD :X

NEW YRS EVER WHAT TO DO?

11:02:00 PM

Tuesday, December 29, 2009Y

HATE IS A STRONG WORD,
so i REALLY REALLY REALLY dont LIKE you.

YES! JONATHAN WOON FINALLY K.O'ED
:)

urgh.. mind me not.

hahahaha

i love my brother.
yeah i think :)
heee..

Im finally done!
*jump for joy*
but im kinda sad.
but happy.
no need to wake up at 6 in the morning.
ahhahahha...

so what am i to do now?
HOLIDAY!!!!

bring me somewhere other than a shopping mall thanks. :)

11:39:00 PM

Sunday, December 27, 2009Y

Big Girls don't cry.

You are so lucky .
cos you have a ton of friends to back u up when you need it.
when you are feeling sad.
when you want something.
when you want somewhere to go or do.

You are just the luckiest.
good for you.

i have low self-esteem.
deal with it can?

hrmm.. im so bored.
i need to get out of here.

4:59:00 PM