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Hi, I'm dee:). I am dEE.I have a much much longer name but I'll leave it as it is for the sake of internet safety measures. I'd like to believe that I am a princess :)
im crazee over colours&dotts.. i'd like to stand on top of the world and scream! im slightly screwed up. but i cry,laugh,eat,sleep like you. im not an ALIEN. but i often wonder how would that be like :) i love my boyfriend♥ Mr. Leong Chun HOO
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Sunday, January 03, 2010Y

2010 SUCKS!

hey, its the first few days into the new year and i really HATE IT.
My dad has gone madly INSANE.
My mom is in deep depression.
My nephews are monsters.
My sister is still in her "single" world.
My brother is flying arnd up there in a heartshaped cloud.
AM I THE ONLY FUCKIN' SANE ONE HERE?

i hate this really,
ive lost all my friends to deep partying& better friends.
ive lost all touch with myself due to busyness.
ive got the taste of unfairness and i really hate it.
i dont take advantage.
thats why people dont bother inviting me anywhere because my ans is always.
NO.

you all are 10 steps forward and im 20steps back.
thats how it goes.

i really hate this.
why cant my family be NORMAL.
why cant they TRUST ME FOR ONCE.
with or without him.
i really want to be like them.
LIKE HER!
why cant i?

i really wantt to be free.
i really like to go out at night and come home at 6am.
just enjoying myself.
dont i have the right?
it always gets back to that thing
abt being special& the 10 out of ppl shit thing.
i HATE IT!

she is prettier than me why nothing happen to her?
i would really love to go road trips and come back at night or late afternoon.
but noo!
everything is a no. or its to dangerous or i dont trust you.
in a group of 10ppl wtf can happen to me?
tell me pls.

dont be jealous okay.
you were MY age once you FELT that freedom.

you have heard tht somefriend of mine had damn hell of a strict parents.
and they didnt allow her to even step a foot out.
but look at her now.

its that simple thing of letting go.
if i wanted to get pregnant.
i would have a long time ago.

if only you were there when my auntie was advicing me.
"GO OUT ENJOY YOURSELF, YOUR STILL SO YOUNG. THERES ALOT TO SEE OUT THERE THAN ROTTING HERE AT HOME. PARTY, ENJOY. BUT STAY AWAY FRM ALL THE SEX& DRUGS."

i just wanna know why?
WHY WHY WHY!
if all u wanted frm me was to study& one day join the church or something.
YOU SHOULD HAVE KEPT ME AWAY TO THE CHURCH OR SOMETHING.

this is way unfair.
My friends have a social life.
MY BOYFRIEND has a social life.
why cant you give me one??
what must i do?
you want me to pay you back all the money i used just for my freedom?
tell me WHAT TO DO!
id DO ANYTHING YOU WANT!
PLEASE .

ive lost touch with all myfriends because of you
afraid that id make you angry.
i defend all of them especially him from your dirty mouth.
thats why i always say no. to keep you from saying anything.
im simply ALONE NOW.

THANKS FOR NOTHING.
the both of you.

8:02:00 PM